Curve balls, U-turns, about faces...what do these have in common? Right now? Me.
I finished writing my thesis last Thursday, or at least I finished making the edits and changes that my thesis chair asked for and put it into a tighter more stream lined version of itself, and I feel damn good about that, took me longer than I thought it would as I redid some things that I didn't like about it, which of course made it better. Emailed it to my chair and he said it looked better and that he was giving copies to the other two members of my committee, which is fantastic. Then he told me we should go ahead and schedule an early fall defense as people would be gone for the summer.
At first I was kind of mad as I would like to have had gotten back up to Missoula and get it all done with, but then I started thinking about it and it made more sense this way. Like he said, I will be able to get feedback from the other two professor's which will make a defense that much easier to get through, which I am all for. I would have been stressed and rushed had I had to get up there in the next week or so, I was willing to do it, but it would have been nerve-wracking. So I think it is a good thing, just took a little convincing of the brain on that.
I think I was in such a rush to get it done that I didn't want to see speedbumps in the way, but I needed to be reminded that I am mentally a fullsized pickup and not a dropped down car with a spoiler. I can handle speedbumps at a higher speed without doing any risk of damage.
The upside of it all is that this is the first summer in a long time that I can go ahead and be guiltfree. I don't have to be sitting here thinking that there is something I should be doing, something I should be working on, some aspect that I could be tweaking to better it. It's done for now, I can read over it to keep it fresh in my head, think about how I will present it, but I don't have to think of it as something that has to be done because it is and will be further in a few months. I can veg out in front of the tv guilt free, I can go out with friends guilt free, I can work on personal projects guilt free. I like that.
At the same time I can look at the future in a brighter light, it's no longer a this has to be done to do that type of future, but rather it is a this chapter is ending how does the next one continue the story of Matt. That is something I really love. I know longer have to look at the changes my friends make (whether it is moving or whatever) as challenges but rather inspiration to figure it out for me and how I can do the same because I am not holding myself back anymore. Slow but sure I am teaching myself that not all curveballs need be feared, not all U-turns are illegal, and about faces give new view to old problems.
Now for some music...
awesome song that one
Dierks Bentley's new one, he has a bluegrass album coming out soon that I cannot wait to hear, love this guy and can't wait to see him in concert in August at the WEfest
Now for some BBC Live Lounge covers (love this stuff)
Taio Cruz covering Mumford and Sons Little Lion Man
Mumford and Sons covering Vampire Weekend's Cousins
Sugababes covering Florence and the Machine's Rabbit Heart
30 Seconds to Mars cover Lady Gaga Bad Romance
I finished writing my thesis last Thursday, or at least I finished making the edits and changes that my thesis chair asked for and put it into a tighter more stream lined version of itself, and I feel damn good about that, took me longer than I thought it would as I redid some things that I didn't like about it, which of course made it better. Emailed it to my chair and he said it looked better and that he was giving copies to the other two members of my committee, which is fantastic. Then he told me we should go ahead and schedule an early fall defense as people would be gone for the summer.
At first I was kind of mad as I would like to have had gotten back up to Missoula and get it all done with, but then I started thinking about it and it made more sense this way. Like he said, I will be able to get feedback from the other two professor's which will make a defense that much easier to get through, which I am all for. I would have been stressed and rushed had I had to get up there in the next week or so, I was willing to do it, but it would have been nerve-wracking. So I think it is a good thing, just took a little convincing of the brain on that.
I think I was in such a rush to get it done that I didn't want to see speedbumps in the way, but I needed to be reminded that I am mentally a fullsized pickup and not a dropped down car with a spoiler. I can handle speedbumps at a higher speed without doing any risk of damage.
The upside of it all is that this is the first summer in a long time that I can go ahead and be guiltfree. I don't have to be sitting here thinking that there is something I should be doing, something I should be working on, some aspect that I could be tweaking to better it. It's done for now, I can read over it to keep it fresh in my head, think about how I will present it, but I don't have to think of it as something that has to be done because it is and will be further in a few months. I can veg out in front of the tv guilt free, I can go out with friends guilt free, I can work on personal projects guilt free. I like that.
At the same time I can look at the future in a brighter light, it's no longer a this has to be done to do that type of future, but rather it is a this chapter is ending how does the next one continue the story of Matt. That is something I really love. I know longer have to look at the changes my friends make (whether it is moving or whatever) as challenges but rather inspiration to figure it out for me and how I can do the same because I am not holding myself back anymore. Slow but sure I am teaching myself that not all curveballs need be feared, not all U-turns are illegal, and about faces give new view to old problems.
Now for some music...
awesome song that one
Dierks Bentley's new one, he has a bluegrass album coming out soon that I cannot wait to hear, love this guy and can't wait to see him in concert in August at the WEfest
Now for some BBC Live Lounge covers (love this stuff)
Taio Cruz covering Mumford and Sons Little Lion Man
Mumford and Sons covering Vampire Weekend's Cousins
Sugababes covering Florence and the Machine's Rabbit Heart
30 Seconds to Mars cover Lady Gaga Bad Romance
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hope inspiration hits you like a wet fish in the face.