the_matt79

I was thinking that I was going to wait until 2010 to write another blog, but I keep having ideas and thoughts swirl around and bubble to the surface that I thought I would put them out there. So bear with me this one might be a bit sporadic, but that's okay, always remember that.

First off I am watching movies today, that's how I ring in the new year, I have to work at 7am tomorrow so I won't be going out. I am fine with it because I wouldn't do much other than get drunked up and so this way I will save money and then earn holiday pay tomorrow hangover free, win/win. The extra cash then can be steamrolled into greatness later in the year, and I have a feeling that there will be greatness ahead.

That takes me to another thought, I don't know what it is but I keep having a feeling that the new year and decade will hold greatness for me. I get thoughts like this periodically in my life and they usually aren't to off center, so who knows what kinds or levels of greatness will come my way but I do feel that they will indeed come my way. I think part of getting them to come your way is by putting the vibe out there that you are ready and willing for it to come your way, and I am all about that right now.

I have decided that I am ready to fall in love again, that I am happy enough with myself to get out there and see what happens. Now I know that you can't make a resolution to fall in love, because these things have to happen on their own, and I am cool with that, I just have a feeling that now is a good time to be open to it. I will continue to work on things in my life that I need to for my own sanity, but I think that mentally I am more ready now than I have ever been. Perhaps it is because a girl I graduated with told my mom, at some function they were at, that she should hook me up, play matchmaker, that type of thing. The funny thing is that I haven't seen Tracey in years, her and her husband Garth just moved back to our town, and hell they are good people so I can't be mad at her or nothing, just surprised that she thinks she should take it on her. The thought of being fixed up, if it materializes, is kind of scary to me, but that is my fear holding me back so the excitement that something good could come out of it is there to take it's place as long as I remind myself not to be scurred (is that how you spell it, I went phonetically so hopefully you know what I mean).

I went bird hunting with dad and his dog yesterday and that kind of kicked my ass. It was cold, but not to bad really, it was the walking in the snow hat kicked my ass, especially when the drifts and snowbanks would hold up for a while and give you a false sense of security and then you would fall through and trudge your way out again, that part sucked. It was fun to watch his dog work the brush and bushes, just barrels through there looking for birds, that dog doesn't know how to quit until you get back to the pickup and then he is beat. He is pretty tired still today, but that's a good thing, since it's his nature to do that type of thing it is nice to get him out there where he can do it. I know some people might not agree with hunting and all of that, but it has always been something I can do with dad, even if it's not my favorite thing to do, dad likes it and I love him so I can go out periodically and see what happens. It just sucks a little that he has actual weekends off and my weekends are Tuesday Wednesday so that we can't go out more than what we do, but I spend a good amount of time with him so we're cool.

Mom got stuck in the snow coming home today, how the hell she spun her car around like shie did is something that I would have loved to see. I went to help her since it wa a block away I walked down and we almost had it out through her driving and my pushing and digging, but frustration set in on both her parts and she wound up getting fed up and walking home and dad and I got it. I gotta remember to keep working on my interactions with my parents, my frustrations with things shouldn't be taken out on them, and I know that and I do better now than I ever did before, but that is something I can put into a resolution. I need to remember that my parents don't think like me so I shouldn't react like I sometimes do, especially when said reactions then cause them to get mad and frustrated in return. Can't we all just get along?

I have started to make adjustments in the way I spend money so that I can get my future set up a bit more the way I want it, and be able to not fear getting out of dodge, knowing that I will survive through my means and the support of friends and loved ones. So I am pretty happy about all of that, and that's something I am going to keep building up, as my spending habits have been ridiculous the last couple years, not overspending what I have ridiculous, but not saving like I should type of ridiculous.

Oh yeah, the movies I am watching today. I watched 9 and loved it. The story and animation are phenomenal and I will probably be putting that one in the video library one of these days. Then I watched District 9 and was fascinated by that one. I don't know how they got the effects to look that damn real, but kudos to them. The effects added so much to the story, where sometimes in scifi they are more to distract and entice, these ones drew you in more and engrossed you in the story. Damn good flicks so far. I found out that the bluray player I got the folks for Christmas came with a $30 promotional deal for Amazon video on demand downloads so I downloaded Inglorious Basterds so I wouldn't have to wait for Netflix to send it over and it now lives on my Tivo waiting for me to watch it, and then it stays there as long as I want. I also did a download renting of Jennifer's Body because I didn't want to wait to see that one either. Then a red envelope showed up today with a documentry of sorts of Claude Levi Strauss in his own words from various interviews and whatnot over the years. As an anthropologist I figured that I shoule know more about him and his ideas, especially when I agree with them.

I want to read and write more. I want to converse and correspond more. I want to give and receive love more. I want all of these things and to give all of these things. I want to paraphrase Paul McCartney and make sure that in the end I do receive as much as I give, but I want to try to make sure that I give more than I receive. Don't want to stand out as an only child now.

Happy New Year to you and yours, all of you! May the new year find you in good health and good spirits and may you take the new decade and make it all that you hope it to be.