the_happy_pig

My boss offered me a promotion the other day, well, first things first - I work for a multi-national company, only at a moderately low level. I fell into the job by chance, and it's one of the first "career" type jobs I've ever had. Now it looks like I'm one of the few who get "picked" for promotion, and up the ladder I go.

I feel really weird about it, I have this innate fear and distrust of these huge world spanning corporations. But now I'm starting to rise in the ranks of one of these companies. I feel a bit like I'm betraying all those thing I so fervently believed when I was younger. The only problem is that I don't really have prospects anywhere else.

I'm going to be having my boss and his boss have "a little chat" about it at a conference I'm going to on friday, which makes me just think of back room meetings and sweaty hand shakes. I've been to a couple of these conferences before, and get almost astounded by these people. They have almost nothing in their lives, except the company. I can't really deal that well with those people that are 24/7 corporate.

But I can feel the abyss opening up in front of me. The outstretched arms of this faceless company, and the whispering voice saying "join us".

This is a fear I have.

But other than that I'm fine!