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the_happy_pig

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Sunday Nov 12, 2006

Nov 12, 2006
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Well, firstly, I'd like to apologise for not being around lately. I guess I've been hiding away from everybody - Not in a bad way mind you. But after the travelling around like a mad bastard, I've just felt compelled to close the door on the world for a bit and get my breath back. So yes, sorry, but that's how it is at the moment.

I suppose a bunch of stuff has been going on around me physically, but mentally I've not really been doing that much. I've found that playing Oblivion completely sucks your life up, you sit down with every intention of playing for half an hour or so, and the next moment it's half past 2 in the morning and your skin has turned the colour and texture of porridge.

I did have the piratey geekfest which was really good, but a bit of a double edged sword - of which more in a bit. But it was a lot better than I expected, especially seeing as Larry (Who is one of the pair that organise and run the event) couldn't make it down because of some rather nasty medical problems with his wife. So I found myself pushed into his role. Which is pretty hard and moderately stressful, seeing as most of the crew at the event were about first timers and seemed a bit excitable - not good at one of theses events. But, they were fantastic, and did whatever you asked of them without question and really threw themselves into it, even down to the guy that had no problem running around the pitch black woods at 10 at night with no light clad only in a pair of trousers.

Idiot.

But it was a resounding success, and I've been drafted onto the commitee for the organisation of the next one, which is something I am looking forward to - if it wasn't for this damned double edged sword of which I spoke earlier. But, as I said, more of that later. The costumes I made went down well enough that I now have proper commisions, so I'll be able to hone my skills whilst getting paid for my time and making some very cool stuff. And hopefully going some way into setting up some form of home business. I've been asked to go to some other events as apparently my drunken ramblings (And yes, surprise surprise to the people that know me, I got Legendarily drunk) endeared me to a number of people that thought my acting ability was beyond reproach. So that should be good. At the very least, it's a few weekends away being exceedingly childish and stupid.

Which works for me.

But yes, what of this double edged sword of which I spoke? Well, I'm glad you asked me that question, and the answer to it is quite a long and rambling one, so feel free to tune out right now. In fact it's so long and rambling I'll do you the favour of just spoilering it all so you don't have to deal with it if you don't want to.

SPOILERS! (Click to view)


Right.

I guess I've never belonged to any sort of social group. Or at least I've never tried to actively belong to one. I have all manner of friends, all of whom move in completely different circles. And to be fair, the thought of those circles mingling brings me out in a cold sweat. One of the myriad reasons I hate birthdays and stuff, All these circles of friends want me to do something, yet if I get everyone together (Which on the surface seems like a good thing) then it's all awkward, and people don't get on, than I get stressed out because as I'm the reason they're all together, then I should make sure that everyone is at least ok. You know the thing - making sure that certain people stay away from each other, because there's no way in hell that they'll ever get on, making sure that no one feel s excluded and a hundred and one other things that just make me not enjoy myself. So, in order to minimise that kind of thing, I try and not do it. I just can not be bothered to deal with all that stuff. I'm pretty much the same with my family. Worse even. I do not do famly politics, and my family know this, if I even smell the subject hovering on a conversation, I will politely wrap the subject up and then not speak to that member of the family for 6 months. Harsh I know, but sometimes it's the only language they understand. But yes, I've digressed haven't I. Now where was I?

Yes, that's it. social groups. I would imagine, and hope that's one of the major reasons we're all on this site, not looking for somewhere to fit in, but just somewhere to be, and be accepted for that. Simplistic maybe, and probably badly put, but I hope you get what I'm saying. So yes, even at school, I ever held alliegance to any particular group, it was a survival instinct I suppose, that if you get on with everyone, then you don't have a massive list of enemies. So I was on equally good terms with the hard kids as the nerds, the sporty kids and the stoners. So, at this event, I meet and get accepted without hesitation into yet another group - that of the LRP community. Which is one I've always tried to keep at a big distance. For a start it's not got the best image, and I've met a lot of people involved in it that go some way into keeping that stereotype going - they'll try their hardest at being a rules lawyer, and trying all the time to be able to get one up in the most pathetic ways on other people, both during games and in between. I merely go to these things because it's quite therapeutic to just run around all weekend screaming and wielding a big rubber axe, but then again, I am a complete child. But this lot, oh dear. They are quite cool for the most part, and there's a few that take it as seriously as me, so we end up just hanging out, getting really drunk and/or stoned and just laughing at everyone else. But of course, it like one big happy inbred family, someone at the event has accused me of sleeping with is girlfriend, which I didn't - could have done, but I surprised myself by not doing it. And has tryed to rally up as much support for his wounded pride as he can, which now means that at the next event, I'll have to deal with more politics. Which does make me think that if it looks like I have to, I'll just ditch going anymore because I just can't be arsed to deal with it.

Oh well, that's just the nature of people I suppose, I should really expect nothing more, but this is why I like to keep myself at arm's length from everyone I know, because when the going gets tough, I just say fuck it and bugger off.



Other than that, I'm doing ok. I promise I'll check in on you guys a bit more, even though I don't have that much to say at the moment.

Oh yes, I'm going to be in London for a weekend at some point within the next month, I'll let you know dates when I can sort out money and stuff, but if anyone wants to meet up for a drink, coffee or what have you, give me a shout and let me know if you'e up for it.

VIEW 22 of 22 COMMENTS
thequestion:
As a form of music it can be very lively and upbeat, but I think there is always a certain sadness/darkness too it. One day I'll own more than one CD of it and be able to speak with some authority.
Nov 18, 2006
thequestion:
How good generally are the rest of the CD swap cds? I'm trusting you to send me ones I'll like. wink
Nov 18, 2006

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