the_gentleman

School tomorrow...Fuck me! I'm anxious as fuck...by tomorrow I won't give a damn, but tonight I've got time to think about it. That combined with a recent loss in sleep time (Yeah...that means you) and my continued loss of appetite is why I think I'm nevous. That or I know this time is pretty much the end all, no fuck ups, last chance for a free ride to college, or in life. Time to put up or shut up type of thing. Fuck man!

I hate a lot...a whole hell of a lot. I use the word hate maybe more than any other word, and mean it about 50% of the time. That'd seem more like a big deal if you really knew just how much I said I hate something. Once I sat down and tried to compile a list of things I had a strong distaste for...It ended up being a hydra affair...one thing gave birth to a handful more, and that handful exploded into more things than I could count, all with their own offsprings of dissaproval. I ended up giving up when the list hit triple digits...Anyway...I've come to realize...well not just recently, I've known this for a while. But at one point I realized that I share a good number of the qualities I hate in people. I of course justify my traits through various excuses with no real backing to them. I'm not much better than the rest of the filth...Or am I?

The girl and I are doing awesome. She just colored her hair red and black, I like it. It's at least just 2 colors now instead of the 456453183 colors it was before.

Work is good...working 6 days a week, getting around 40 hours or so. My manager did a good job of working around my school schedule and still gave me enough time to study and have a life. I'm enjoying myself...though the new people could be a little quicker on the draw, fuck it.

Other than that I'm still pretty much keeping to myself. I need to call a few people I haven't talked to in a while, return some calls, and get better about not being a shitty friend...

Maybe tomorrow.