my journal entry for the day is going to be amazingly drunkrospective as i've just returned from last call....plans worked out to be 50/50 for the night so no complaints for this guy. First of all before i start patrone is the best...okay now on to the important stuff.......have you ever felt like this entire existance was a sham? Like you are being watched or...
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well 323 came and went with much drama as possible...almost did something stupid that would have gotten me into a lot of trouble i showed maturity and let it go (to be cryptic) plus we got like 5 inches of snow on the first day of spring...so today sucked as expected. Can't wait until Sunday (going to philly to see Interpol and staying over night)...
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Happy 323! Today is the irrelevant day of relevance! Hope nothing bad happens...again. Usually when i see 323 at any given time something bad happens soon after....haha maybe it's the end of the world. Oh well.
Okay here is my drunken thought of the day....curious after 3 years of promising each other things as preverted as white picket fences, a cat, dog, 2.5 kids and happily ever after.....that i can somehow become the "other man." That somehow i could be the same man to a girl that she would lie to....to a new "boyfriend"....to want to kiss....to fuck....to want to be...
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okay here is my thought of the day....i was wondering if everyone felt the same as me....do you think that anyone will ever completely know you? here is where my thought comes from....okay at work i know this guy named chuck...good guy, i only talk to him about sports (dont' write me off i have a vast list of interests)....so to chuck...i am the guy...
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bonsugar:
'do you think that anyone will ever completely know you?' i imagine that depends on what 'knowing you' is. . . and i'm not sure that perceiving every aspect of your personality is necessarily it. granted, no one will ever have the intimate relationship with yourself that you have. no one has your memories or history, and therefore you are unique. i want to say that for another individual to be able to completely define you, he would need to be you. and, well, it's fairly unlikely that that will happen.
but i have quite a few people in my life (who aren't my coworkers, so that's a start) who i feel 'know' me. they are as close to me as i imagine anyone ever will be. and although perhaps they have never seen me cry hysterically, or have an orgasm, or dance my heart out, etc, they know enough about me to imagine these things are possible. maybe that's it: someone knows you when they can predict your actions? it's a thought.
but i have quite a few people in my life (who aren't my coworkers, so that's a start) who i feel 'know' me. they are as close to me as i imagine anyone ever will be. and although perhaps they have never seen me cry hysterically, or have an orgasm, or dance my heart out, etc, they know enough about me to imagine these things are possible. maybe that's it: someone knows you when they can predict your actions? it's a thought.
Ah nothing like spontaneous trips....after trying to hitch a ride to hell with the captain the other night...only to be denied access at the door, i thought it was a good idea to go along with my friend "The Swan" to the Turning Stone casino near Syracuse NY. I decided to tempt fate yet again with the $200 i made at work yesterday...so despite being...
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so i definately need to get photo editing software...all my pics are gigantic so i only put one up for now. At least i'm not faceless anymore.
... so instead of just leaving my mantra up as my one and only journal entry, i'm going to participate in this site. i guess i've been a fly on the wall for too long.
so journal entry number 1. Here it goes. I've been in the whole underground scene for a long time now. i remember going to my first show way back in...
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so journal entry number 1. Here it goes. I've been in the whole underground scene for a long time now. i remember going to my first show way back in...
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night:
nice journal entry..... 
Have fun in Philly
i am glad that you are back in to the site.
XOXO
Have fun in Philly
i am glad that you are back in to the site.
XOXO
maurauder:
You made me look up a new word. Bless you. 
...the ironic thing is that you'll never truely be happy until you realize that this entire existence is worthless... because when the last person on earth is gone, nothing that was ever done or said is going to mean anything.
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cambria:
how can i add if i know nothing about you? yeah theres the profile, but that only shows so much..
cambria:
im not sure really. since you dont update the journal. but whatever.
enlighten me.
enlighten me.
I guess I just have to say that it does totally blow my mind on a daily basis, but the only thing that keeps me from going crazy about it is... enjoying everything, being present and engaged in everything I do, loving my friends and family and truly enjoying every moment I have with them, just simply letting myself enjoy the simple pleasures that life affords.
It sounds to me that you are hung up on finding meaning behind it all, and not just SOAKING IT UP! Life is amazing.