the_deacon

My dad had a really rough weekend, he was having a rough time breathing so i went up sunday and took a non-rebreather mask up to my dad and hooked him up on his O2 and turned up the machine and Voila...better breaths. But i was upset because my dad had been doing overall fairly well then this hit on wednesday. So here is this guy with no left lung at all for over 15 years and walked around through 8 months of radiation and chemo with cancer going strong in his one good lung and other areas, still hadn't needed oxygen. til last wednesday. I knew all appeared to be too good for so long. I knew it would come to a climax so today i went to work. called at 8am to talk to my dad and mom and see how he was. all was ok. then at 9:30 my mom called me, my dad collapsed and went into a seizure.

I knew this was possible. one area of spread for his cancer was to his brain and the swelling from the cancer and radiation treatments is taking effect now. I left work immediately and arrived within 3 minutes to their house, thank god for working close by...surprisingly the ambulance crew was there quicker than that! they beat me. all day in the ER, stabilized and off to ICU. Big decision time now. we talked and talked before and now we have to put it into effect. How much do we want to do? etc. His illness is terminal and he is losing any functionality at all. the quality is now falling and things are getting rough and changing. He is content to let himself go but my mom...she always said she was ready but after seeing her today...she's not.

My blogs get too long so I will just say, his blood pressure and pulse are all over the place with no stability because he brain function area is now affected. So things are changing very quickly. I came home to care for my animals. then back into town again to see him. I think I am smuggling my one dog in with me so it can lay on the bed with him. I just pray he is more relaxed and i can't get over the fact that with all the stuff going on. he has No pain at all! none. Thank you God for that! and i do feel better after typing this out. peace and talk later all...