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Hello the entire SG Wonderland! 26 on the 26th is here and if you don't get it, today is officially my birthday. I am already loaded with messages on my Facebook and Myspace and people are hitting my phone up like crazy. Kinda something worthwhile when people take account of your birthday when you yourself don't really. However, for some reason, today is a more worthwhile birthday and maybe because it is coincidental that I turn twenty-sixth on the twenty-sixth of March. So for this special and rare-type update, I'll post up plenty of questions people seem to ask about me on my Myspace and Facebook and even put an answer in. Maybe you'll have a better understanding why I am how I am because I know for a fact I am very unorthadox and different on many levels. So here we go with the posting of an interview spanning from Myspace, Facebook, my former and self-cancelled profile from LiveJournal, my former and cancelled profile at EditRed, and even from the former website I used to work out, ICE. I'll even throw in questions people ask me personally too.

jIt says on your profile that you love all forms of media. What do you mean by that?

It is exactly as it sounds. I love all forms of media either they be movies, video games, televison shows, writing, drawing, photography, or books. Because of this love of all forms of media, I am never bored ever.

You say you love all forms of media but when it comes to music and such it seems you listen to rock and reggaeton more than anything else. Should you be saying that you love reggaeton and rap music instead of just loving music in general as well as this question pertains to any form of media.

Those are personal preferences not specialization. I do not specialize when it comes to anything for being open-minded keeps options open and open options means opportunities. True a lot of my playlist and most of the unofficial themes of characters as well as novels I write are mostly rap but I listen to everything. It just so happens that most of my list consists of rock and reggaeton. Show you reason to it, I love Ricky Martin and he's a latin pop singer and I love Gretchen Wilson and she's a country singer. I love Josh Bell and he is classical violin. Kristin Chenoweth is broadway. Andrew Lloyd Webber is soundtrack. Roxette is 80s pop. Marilyn Manson is industrial rock. Calle 13 is pop reggaeton. See where I am getting at? So I don't specialize but my mind is set to personal preferences.

You're considered as a New Kingdom Pluralist. What exactly is that?

Pluralism is the belief that all faiths and religion all come from the same faith and religion but have been seperated, segregated, and divided throughout time and history. The reason why New Kingdom is tact on the very beginning is because every faith can be relative to the Abrahamic Faiths compared to any other thus I believe all the faiths in the world are associatively linked or drawn from the Abrahamic Faiths. Give you an example with Greek Mythology. There are twelve main gods when it comes to Greek/Roman Mythology and there are twelve main gods in Norse Mythology thus the relative there but if you want to go into the Abrahamic Faiths, there are twelve main angels in the heiarchy of God's angels who interact with people like the gods of Greek Mythology and Norse Mythology did. The archangel Michael is best used to be relative to Zeus and Thor for he used a hammer as a weapon and controlled lightning.

You're a New Kingdom Pluralist yet it says you are also Agnostic so how can that be?

Agnosticism is the belief that you cannot prove or disprove the existence of God rationally. I honestly believe we cannot prove or disprove the existence of God and that most of it will be based off faith which I believe is the strongest part of a person if they make it so. It is the only part that cannot be taken away from you unless you do so. Think of the one inch in V for Vendetta.

Yet you seem to "hate" or "attack" Agnostics in your second novel Tourniquet so how can you say you are an Agnostic if you put them at such a negative position in your second novel?

I am an Agnostic but I am what is called an Weak Agnostic Theist which means I believe you cannot prove or disprove the existence of God yet I still believe. Also, the "weak" part comes in not because I don't lack faith or anything like that. It is a term given to those who believe in Agnosticim but feel the need not to change the belief of everyone else. There are really many identifications for Agnosticism but three are mostly used and two classes are used as well. The three identities are Agnostic Neutral, Agnostic Theist, and Agnostic Atheist and the two classes are weak and strong Agnostic. From the description I gave of where I stand, I ams sure you can figure out the rest of the classes.

Now you say you believe in God but you state yourself as an Anarchist. Isn't that opposing to your belief?

There are two forms of Anarchy and they are Chaos - which everyone seems to relate to Anarchy - and Order. The purest form of Order only happens in the beginning and the purest form of Chaos will happen in the End of time and the world. Now this is all government based and I believe in the seperation of church and state. I honestly believe that people should be able to govern themselves without the need or help of an outside government but it is a dream and I understand that. Too many factors come into play for why Anarchy will not exist such as for the United States it will be that we are driven generally by greed and vanity. We don't just want the biggest, fastest, strongest, but we want the biggest, fastest, strongest than him or her or this country or that country.

But underneath political views, it says "Rationalist". Where did that come from?

I am actually prefer ratiocination which is what Detective Dupin used during his adventures written by Edgar Allan Poe. Anyways, I believe in personal responsibility and thus there are factors that come in on the individual than there are on the society. I'll give the example of abortion. The rationalist view on abortion is it should be an option depending on the situation such as rape, or the life established is going to die, but it is an option, not a demand. Now if pregnancy occurs on behalf of personal choice, then abortion should be a two-person (mother and father) decision but the woman of course has more say since she is carrying. The man can only put in his views. Now all in all, if you decide to choose from that point for irresponsibility I won't stop you but that's just the rationalized view on personal responsibility since there are so many other options out there. On other hand, I believe we should have abortion clinics here for safety reasons for if we ban abortion here, a woman who is bent on abortion will go elsewhere and elsewhere may not be safe like per se Mexico. There are so many factors but I won't go into detail.

It says you state yourself as a Bright Green Environmentalist. What is that exactly?

It is another class of environmentalism. There are three classes. The first class is called Light Green Environmentalist. This is what Al Gore as in the world needs our help and everyone needs to help out to make it better. Dark Green Environmentalists are your terroristic environmentalist. Imagine a war in which the terrorists are killing people because companies pollute the waters and destroy the forests. Now what I am is a Bright Green Environmentalist is a person who believes in changing and helping the earth without the need or help of everyone thus I'll be able to do my part and that will be better than good or I'll make something that will assimilate well into society without any rejections.

Finally it says you are a Universalist. What is that exactly?

A believe everything happens on a universal standard which is mostly based around Universal Laws of Space, Time, and Quantum. Space and Time have been already specialized into science in the forms of Newton's Laws of Inertia and Gravity but his third law is still unbeknowest from all being Quantum. This is however been used in the forms of positive reinforcement per se "The Secret". I love that book but it comes off too much as a self-help book and that seems to be one of the reasons why it is so undermined. There are many other views like karma which I believe but all of the Universalist views comes from the attitude and the personalogy and mentality of a mind per se Dianetics. Give an example with two people having the same event of almost getting hit by a car happen to them yet one is positive and one is negative. Positive person will see it as being blessed that he or she wasn't hit while the negative person will see it as he or she is cursed for almost being hit. Also, the bit of karma is that good things happen to good people and bad things happen to bad people and what you are will come back to you tenfold. If you're a hustler then life will hustle you because you make it so. More events of you being a huster will come into play because you expect them because you are a hustler. Things like that.

A lot of people say you have a very open-minded view and very understanding view of people thus why you are a sociologist but isn't that just something like psychology too?

Very similar with different outcomes. Psychology puts the emphasis of the blame on society while sociology will recognize factors all around but will put the responsibiliy of said factors on you. It is your choice and your perception of said events that makes you.

There is word that most of your friends are girls and that you understand them more but mostly those who are in what is known as "The Negative End of Society". Why is that?

I think there are many factors but two come into play more. First off, my best friend since kindergarten is a girl and second, I used to be a bouncer for a strip club. My best friend Dizzy has always been there and has seen me change and I seen her change and maybe we learned from each other. Before I was a bouncer, I had this very negative and disgusting view about strippers but once I got into the business, I learned and maybe that is why I see people for who they are and not what they look like. I found some of the most visually appealing girls who are nasty and disgusting inside and vice versa. I even found the extreme rarity of extremly gorgeous girls who you stereotype as snobbish or prissy by how they look then find out they love comic books and is a huge nerd. So I always take people from an understanding. And when I say understanding of people, I don't just mean girls but everyone as well.

So all these things caters to you always being a happy person all the time and just letting things be when they come?

The one piece of the universe I know I can control is my own so I make it good, make it well, make it just. Being a good sociologist is also being able to do two things very well. The first is to relate to people now relating doesn't mean empathy for you may not understand a person's pain if you never experienced it. You can only relate to a person with pain you had if you had it. The next thing a good sociologist will do is adapt. Adapting is very important for it means you can change with the times and the situation thus moving forward but to move forward, you have to take care of what is presently happening.

Is there anything that makes you angry, upset, or sad.

Despite the fact that I try to understand people and I do a very good job getting along with people, I am always judged and misunderstood because of how unorthadox my interests are, how open-minded I am, and how unlike everyone else's view I am. Not to mention the super-happiness. I used to be bitter and angry and without a conscience so that was a mixture that will always be remembered especially from my best friend. Imagine someone who is chaotic and knows how to vandalize correctly? That was me. That changed when I found my atittude was hurting people not associated with my attitude but with me. People how hated me back then would not comfront me but comfront my friends and even my family because I was related to them. They thought hurting them would hurt me. That is when I realized my epiphany.

However, I am always judged and misunderstood thus I love it when someone actually asks me questions to truly understand me. If someone doesn't get what I am saying or they misunderstand me, I love it when they ask me a question to understand because they actually cherish the moment or the relationship they have with me and I love, respect, and am very thankful for that because I would do the same thing too. Now I say question me to understand me because people like to question to justify as in to put justification on what they believe. Good example, is someone thinks I am weird then they ask what I like and I say anime and video games and they go "oh" and walk away with look on their face like something has been accomplished on their behalf. I know that look very well.

I also personally do better when I am in direct communication of a person as in face to face. I love to communicate but I am not gifted with all the conversation tactics that a Gemini would have since I am not a dual person. I am a straight-forward person and the fact I talk in personification, metaphor, and use a lot of big words and intelligence/wisdom quotes throws people off. Let's say it is stormy outside. Someone might say that the storm clouds are like reapers crying. Well that is a simile. I would usually say the storm clouds are crying or the reapers are crying giving the clouds a direct human trait or pesonalizing it. Think of Hannibal Lecter but with happiness and without the urge to kill. I talk like that a lot. My sister calls it JAN-SPEAK. However you can figure out what I am saying from the two most important factors of communication which are tone (20%) and body language (75%). Only 5% of communication is the actual words. It is hard to express tone and body language online. I mean I can do some internet stuff like TYPE IN ALL CAPS TO BE ANGRY! or Go weally cute-C 4 HAP-E-NESS while U R My BFF N EVA but still that is just words and you don't truly know how a person is really expressing themselves online.

I would go on with more detail but I am not going to cater much on what makes me sad and the above is actually all of it summarized. I'll just say that I thought I was hoping a lot more people here would be more understanding because this site does cater to a group within society that is judged and misjudged a lot.

It is said you cater to three views a lot. What are these three views you cater to and explain them please.

The first is common sense. Though recognized as very rare it is very well recognized as everyone states that common sense is lacking. It is the other two that are even more rare because they aren't recognized. The second is common courtesy which is like being nice, leaving the elevator door open for someone running for the elevator, holding doors open, saying excuse me, saying thank you, saying PLEASE which is very rare! I mean I understand people forgetting every once in awhile but still. The final one is just almost dead thus why a lot of factors on problems exist. The final view is personal responsibility. I believe everyone is responsible for everything that happens to them as in they are responsibile for the view and the prospect that they can do so for said events and situations as it pertains to themselves personally. People care way too much of what other people are doing and thinking as well as what other people think of them too. I met so many people say that they don't care about what other people think. If you don't care, then why bring it up. I person with personal responsibility would actually say, "I person is free to think what they like about me for I am responsible for myself." See the difference.

It is said you don't don't mind ignorance but everyone hates ignorance. Why not you?

Because everyone is ignorant to something. If you told me to speak something in an African language, I would be ignorant to it. That is the truth. It is not ignorance that gets to me but arrogance. Everyone is ignorant to something but a lot of people are also arrogant about it. Example of arrogance through ignorance is someone not knowing what Polo is then calling it stupid and idiotic because he didn't know it. That's arrogance. This is also where the concept of assumption and specialization comes into play too.

You used to be a huge druggie when you were younger yet you were never addicted. How did you do that?

I won't say in case someone wants to try it. If you do then do so but that is your own personal responsibility but I am not a source for information on how. Let's just leave it that drugs is chemistry and the human body is chemistry.

For someone who is so happy and accomplished, why are you single?

*NOTE - This was an awesome question asked personally from one of my girlfriends (she's a girl and my friend) to me.

First I am happy with my life and it is a matter of it will happen when it will happen. I am very social yet I am very well on my own. I am successful on my own. I cater as much to what I believe in though not perfect I do my best and that is what matters. I think the major factor on why I am single is because I am able to do well on my own and that I just don't seem to feel it anymore with anyone. Maybe it's because back in 2008 I had a string of bad attempted relationships and it just catered to my indifference.

Also, I don't do "hook-ups" and all of that. I give everything if I am in a relationship so I am really guarded. I will be honest and very open and very emotional per se with everyone but when I give my scarred heart and the broken pieces of my soul to you, then I am praying and hoping this is it. Only two people in my life have and will always take care of my scarred heart and my broken soul and they are my best friends. My family does their best but there is an understanding only you get from someone like that. Also, take note I say scarred heart and broken soul because it used to be but is healed but still fragile though forged in platinum now through the years.

How I see it, I think I've found the one when I look into her eyes and I start hearing awesome 80s love songs or very emotional rock love ballads. Maybe the song I posted above would be the best interpretation of it. I honestly can see there is someone like that though I may not know who exactly it is right now. It may be someone I know or it may be someone new. Nevertheless she'll be the only reason and I'll know when I look at her.
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I seriously hope you all enjoyed this blog and maybe you'll understand me a bit more. Though simple, there are so many simple things to learn about me that maybe it will account to something. Until I write again, I hope you all are doing well.

Faith. Love. Hope. Will.