i'm stuck.
i'm in this place right now where i don't feel right. some things in my life just aren't adding up. the only things i'm happy with are my family, jason & my friends. but work? school? my health? it all sucks. i'm behind, so very far behind in school. and now i'm wondering why i'm even there. i'm not putting myself into it like i should be. i know i'm smart. i'm not applying myself. i'm procrastinating. i'm using excuses. but there must be a reason. maybe i don't want to be there. i mean, why AM i there? i don't know what i want to do with my life. i'm 23, which is still very young. but look around. so many my age are in careers or have families... and i can't even finish college! i've been there as long as lawyers are. and i don't know what kind of work i want to do. i'm working at meijer. i stock. i'm a slave to people who shop there. why don't i find a job i like better? i don't know. i need a break. i need to break free. out of this "box." out of my constraints. i want to learn to do things like knit, and make shirts, and i want to go for more walks, and spend more quality time with the people i love. i want to travel. and to take pictures. what i don't want to do marketing plans & make up homework i STILL havent' finished from last semester. i'm just stuck. i'm in a rut. and i don't know what to do...
i'm in this place right now where i don't feel right. some things in my life just aren't adding up. the only things i'm happy with are my family, jason & my friends. but work? school? my health? it all sucks. i'm behind, so very far behind in school. and now i'm wondering why i'm even there. i'm not putting myself into it like i should be. i know i'm smart. i'm not applying myself. i'm procrastinating. i'm using excuses. but there must be a reason. maybe i don't want to be there. i mean, why AM i there? i don't know what i want to do with my life. i'm 23, which is still very young. but look around. so many my age are in careers or have families... and i can't even finish college! i've been there as long as lawyers are. and i don't know what kind of work i want to do. i'm working at meijer. i stock. i'm a slave to people who shop there. why don't i find a job i like better? i don't know. i need a break. i need to break free. out of this "box." out of my constraints. i want to learn to do things like knit, and make shirts, and i want to go for more walks, and spend more quality time with the people i love. i want to travel. and to take pictures. what i don't want to do marketing plans & make up homework i STILL havent' finished from last semester. i'm just stuck. i'm in a rut. and i don't know what to do...