that_kid

So this morn... Well more like this afternoon I woke up. and was crying. Now for the explanation why...
So in this dream, well... It started out as a nightmare [i have nightmares every night] I'm in this house and this dude is hunting me down to kill me, but I find solitued in some little girls room. Then the door gets kicked down and it's the guy. I turn around to jump out the window and all of a sudden I'm an employee at STARBUCKS... [thats not the thing that made me cry] So I'm making this persons coffee and i turn around to see my ex girlfriend Jes behind him. He leaves and she asks for a chai and stares at me. And for somereason I can't do anything right, so she says hi and asks how I've been. And I tell her and then say that this is the first time we have talked in a year and a half, it feels good. Then she starts to cry and tell me how much she misses me and how it was a mistake she left me and want's to go back out with me and never lose me again. So we hug and I sit down with her at a table and talked some more. And as we were just about to kiss... I wake up. And the reason why I cried is because I know it will never happen, she'll never come back. I miss her so much it hurts. And she doesn't even care... It's been a year and a half and I still think about her everyday. I wish that I could be with her... But I know I cant... Ever...

No one said love was easy... Or that it's better to have loved and lost than to never love at all... But I don't. I just wish things were different, I wish I could be with her. I would give my soul just to be with her.

Now that I look back... Maybe that drawing I did of the note and straight razor is me leaving a message for her...