thais

I've been feeling pretty fucking horrid lately. On top of worrying about whether I should quit my job and find a part-time one so I can go to school (which I absolutely MUST do), the whole VA tech thing just pushed my emotions to the breaking point. I held my composure until 5pm... and I was ALMOST in the clear b/c everyone in my office was leaving and there were 2 people left and I started crying. Bah. I don't want to get too into the details, but pretty much my class that I need doesn't fit into my work schedule, and I don't want to quit, but I also don't want to stress myself out even more by working from 7am-5:30pm everyday, and squeezing classes in there. I also dont want to look for a new job. I'm just lost on what to do about that, but I'm probably going to quit. I'm sick of being an adult anyway. I should work at a bar or something to get my social life back
Anyway, the VA tech shootings really hit home to me how short & precious life is, and I should really stop bitching and worrying about things I cant control. Nothing trivial matters when theres a gun in your face. It wont be the last time something like this happens, but I hope people learn from this to make campus' safer and to reach out to people who seem like they need some help or attention or friends or whatever. I'm not really the praying type, but I made an acception this week.