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first things first. went to the hospital today for a follow up. took forever. someone decided to fuck with the order of the Q for the physio so instead of being first in line i wound up last. argh. the wrist is setting slightly out of place but is acceptable apparently. stiff shit if not. they arent cutting me open now anyway.there has been no pain at all in the wrist. not even the slightly annoying rather than painful kind. the collarbone isnt too bad either. havent taken even bloody paracetamol in over a week. the collarbone is out by a bit but i was expecting that. and being a collarbone they wont touch it anyway. i have to go back in again next week for more xrays. and to top it all off they didnt even change my cast for all fibreglass. so i have half a cast in fibreglass half in plaster. ie half water proof half not

other shit. my insurance money still hasnt come in yet so this poor bum is going to wind up out on his bum.money is running out and so is all my leave. obviously i cant drive a truck at the moment so i cant work, and everything is coming in all at once. i have to move out, and with no money for bond. when i was at work i had a take home truck that if worst came to worst i had the use of as a roof over my head as work is deckerd out with showers for all the interstate boys. i am thinking of doing interstate when i get back just because of all the tax deductions that i am able to get, oh and to get back to night shift. but until then i need to make 400 bucks stretch out for at least 5 more weeks. my loan is 200pw and then i have my phone bill, and the 300 dollar fine, because to quote the cop "if you didnt have to go to hospital then the bike was rideable and you wouldn't have gotten the fine" bastards. i had a clean record to boot. lastly i cant forget to add in the need to eat food. hopefully the insurance money comes in soon. t take some pressure off me and same for tax return. i'll still be way short but if i can bide my time until i get the truck back it wont be too bad...i hope.

one last little thing. there is this girl who i had a huge thing for. to make things worse it was (and still lingers) reciprocated. but we can't do anything about it because she thinks itisnt right. the way i see it is if we risk the friendship by not talking to each other for the fear of getting ourselves stuck in the rutt where we care to much then we should probably just give it a try. hell, if it doesnt work what have we really lost(from all the tiptoeing around). niente!!! everytime we bump into each other it is akward and neither of us can last long without running through each others minds. argh. i wish either wed give it a try or ID GET THE FUCK OVER HER!!! doesnt help when my current prospects arent all that great. sometimes the only thing preventing someone from moving on is having something to move towards.

oh and i cant fucking shave. that is annoying. and i bitch too much...sorry people