I don’t normally vent like this, but I know mentally I need to let it out. I do worry about my “friends” judging me so I rather do it in here where I don’t know anyone. And I know most people will just skip over it, but hopefully this will be the blow off I need.
Back story is I work at a very busy hospital and we all know what’s going on right now. First this whole thing has been a mental drain. For the past 6 weeks we have been hit and I’ve worried about taking this home to my family.
I have been getting 8-10 positive corona exposures a week at my job. With hearing we were about to open a covid icu only unit I made the choice to send my kids away to live with my mom for a few weeks. I dropped them off Sunday. Monday I get a call from my mom, her doctor called her back and wanted to did a covid test and she was positive. I sent my kids to her in hopes to reduce their chances. Mom has been sick but they diagnose her with sinusitis and thrush. No fever or anything like that and she was out of a quarantine window. Health department said she seems to be the only one locally with these symptoms. I feel so defeated now knowing I sent them to her. (I had to drive and get them back) and now I am having to isolate in my house from them and my wife because of the job I have at the hospital. It really sucks to see them and not be able to hug them. The health dept and our pediatrician had made me feel better saying their chances are low or that they will probably have mild symptoms but it’s still just a mental beat down. I was already to a point where I needed a break and then this. I’m glad every one so far appears healthy so far but this really sucks right now.
