As you can tell by the lack of post, im not a very talkative person. But i have something on my mind. I have never been good about "sharing feelings" or letting people know what i was thinking. But since nobody knows me on here, i feel like there is a certain anonymity to this post. My son is healthy and he is only going in for a minor procedure.
I was told 2 weeks ago my soon to be 11 month old was going to have to have some minor surgery done, more of a "procedure" then anything else. I work in the medical field and deal with things alot worse then what my son will be face with. I know this outpatient surgery is an in and out thing (doctors say maybe 45 minutes). The idea of knowing my child will be under the knife and out has really hit me hard. Yet i have also started feeling guilty. His doctors is at the childrens hospital. As i walk through the area, and sit in the waiting rooms. I see these children and parents that have dealt with so much in their short lives. I honestly don't know how either do it. I feel incredibly guilty knowing that my kids are healthy and that we are blessed only to have this minor thing needing fixed. Surgery, maybe one follow up visit and ideally that will be it. I know everything will be fine, but all these emotions running just makes it harder to sleep. I guess this isnt really a post to reply to, I guess its just really for me, trying to just blow off steam and talk about whats been going on in my head.