texappeal

so i haven't been on here in a while... but i decided to pop back in and will probably be around more again.... i am moved into my new apartment, even if my stuff isn't unpacked at all... i have had an interesting few weeks... yeah, interesting...that is a good way to put it...i met someone completely unexpected when i least wanted to meet someone...but sometimes things happen and you don't expect it and it can be a surprise...so surprise... i met someone who is very opposite of everyone i ever involve myself with... she is someone i had known for a long time and always thought was attractive, even out of my league if you will, and who knew she liked me? i didn't find out until i was very drunk one night...go figure... she pursued me and in my drunken mess i didn't think about my life and what i should be doing, right and wrong, i just said... this feels right. so we've been seeing each other for like 3 weeks... no one i would normally see either... she is a year younger, 2 inches shorter (a wopping 5 feet)... she is quiet and smart, she isn't terribly open or emotional, she is independent and doesn't like to spend all of her time with any one person, she has more friend circles than anyone i've ever met, she is endearingly closed off, she isn't romantic, she is moving to italy... all of these things actually make her appealing in an odd way... she is a challenge but she does most of the work... she has been opening up and she bought flowers for me (the first time she ever bought flowers), she is being open and sweet and wonderful. she asked me to just be with her... it is so odd and lovely and wonderful and even though i know she is leaving the country, i am ok. for once i am not worried about what the future will hold, i will only worry about now. this relationship makes me work on myself, makes me spend time alone and getting to know myself, that is what i need.