wont be online for a while,,, im going to stay with my mom....
I'm letting my dad have some time alone for awhile...
my gramps is and has been in the hospital for a while...
no one this close to me has ever died before...
so I dont know how to feel...
its not like he's going to die " just yet, but with all actuality he is in a very critical.state and he is dieing.. no matter how soon its still happening......
I figured, I'd write it in here, if anyone cant seem to find us this weekend... they'd check myspace..
right now I feel gulity, like I've always been too selfish and it lead me to feel this guilt,, I feel incredibly depressed... confused.. basicly I feel like any moment my heart is going to drop sink into an unstable place..
my mom is coming to get me and will be here in a matter of moments.. so I better just get offf and pack...
I'm letting my dad have some time alone for awhile...
my gramps is and has been in the hospital for a while...
no one this close to me has ever died before...
so I dont know how to feel...
its not like he's going to die " just yet, but with all actuality he is in a very critical.state and he is dieing.. no matter how soon its still happening......
I figured, I'd write it in here, if anyone cant seem to find us this weekend... they'd check myspace..
right now I feel gulity, like I've always been too selfish and it lead me to feel this guilt,, I feel incredibly depressed... confused.. basicly I feel like any moment my heart is going to drop sink into an unstable place..
my mom is coming to get me and will be here in a matter of moments.. so I better just get offf and pack...
shane_is_rad:
((((HUGS)))) I wish the best for you and your family
dexie:
oh my love, i just wentthrogh the same thing with my gramps. we should hang so we can dwell together.