tessaruby

My dad came home Friday! After being gone for awhile.. Which is good, cause I tend to freak the fuck out when I havent seen my dad in over a week.. Hes one of the most necessary people in my life that stabilizes me.. Eh heh, those of you who dont know I was raised by my dad,, I lived with my mom for about a year and some odd months in high school.. But other then that its just always been just my dad and me yeah its gonna be hard when braiden and I move out next month.. But its apart of life Im learning to accept it .. dont get me wrong I want to move out,, but Im sort of a sissy, theres a huge world out side, and as much as my dad has literally broken me threw it,, Im still scared I mean weve been everywhere, San Francisco to New York and everywhere in-between.. But, theres still this living at leisure here with my dad.. Were braiden and I dont have to worry so much..

Were moving out next month no matter what.. Ill just miss my dad..

Gawd the summer is already more then half way over,,, its been like 2 years since Ive been out of high school not counting the majority of time I spent not even attending high school

It makes me sick to my stomach that I still havent accomplished much..

Weve only been out of the state of Utah like 2 times this past year usually we travel more.. But, tremendous amounts of time are just speeding before my eyes..

But, I rescheduled to take my GED on the 20th or the 22... The last appointment failed on account of im a dumb idiot and didnt even go.. Heh.. But hopefully I can take care of it this time..

Anyways, we didnt go camping this weekend plains failed and slipped threw the cracks.. I wanted to but braiden had to work Friday day, and we would have had to drive to flaming gourge around 7 when he got off.. And I wasnt going to go with out him are you kidding me a whole weekend with out my hunk of love.. Some think its lame but whateverIve grown too dependent on braiden I think.. Which needs a good kick in the ass.. Someone willing to step up? Heh jk.. I love this guy though

When we were first getting together I was soo insecure and like 2 years later, and 50 lbs heavyer/ bigger braiden still is soo kind and still actually likes me.. That sounds pretty superficial but most people are I was lucky enough to snag one of the few who arent..

So Friday we chilled and relaxed and chit chated when my dad got home from his trip.. Then sat we went shopping blah blah blah out then that night we fallowed around the kids up in provo againcached a bit of the Hellbound Saints again, they didnt win their battle of the bands.. Because of some emo losers.. But we all know who had the most talent.. It was funny when the emo kids won they got like 150 out of it, and one of the kids was like THANKS the money is going to more dungeons and dragons HAH to bad it didnt go to a band who could actually use it (at least its going to a good cause) yeah RIGHT!

I decided betos is good.. And were gonna fallow around all those guys more often! Even if we have to drive a fucking hour clear out to Utah county all those guys are worth the drive in a month were moving to slc anyways,, then it will only be like a half an hour hah. We actually were considering moving out to provo its nice there, the rent is hella cheap, nikki and those guys only have to pay like 250each a month for a house !!! Theres 3 people thats a deal right there.. But nah,,, were moving to slc, braiden works there after all, and it gives me more of an opportunity to find work even if its some over priced shitty ass studio apartment.. 500 a month take a chunk out of my fun.. And might create more problems but, thats the first step to living on your own

Anyways, this Wednesday is the phenomnauts and the aquabatz,,,, then sat is the warped tour and throw rag that night I know I said I was done with concerts for awhile and I reached the end of that while!

I havent even listened to the aquabatz since like hmmm I was like 17.. But its all good..

Anyways thats a good ramble well leave it at that!