***It's like what I deal with. I am emotionally attached because of the good things that Israel has to offer.. it's like a smile is worth so much to me coming from him. Yet, I'm not given the things that I really NEED from a guy..
***Him telling me that he loves me really doesn't hit my heart. I can only feel what I feel...
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***Him telling me that he loves me really doesn't hit my heart. I can only feel what I feel...
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gosharkz:
hi
When you see me smile @ you I'm probably looking through you. When you hear me laugh with you, I'm more than likely laughing at you. If you are willing to look me in the eye, you'll see that it's not you that I love, but someone else.
If I cried would you cry with me?
I cry over you because I let my feelings get involved.
I will stop.
I will distance myself
and love ME
Instead of you.
I cry over you because I let my feelings get involved.
I will stop.
I will distance myself
and love ME
Instead of you.
Lastnight I was in Portland with my guy. I took a sleeping pill, not thinking that it was going to knock me on my ass in 10 seconds flat. I fell asleep and he jumped into bed with me.. (later?) and he scared me and I rolled over and went back to sleep. I woke up this morning and I drove 3 hours to be...
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timtoxic:
Where is Logsden. LOL I live in Eugene. Love your butt pictures. very cool. 
So he tells you more that he does not feel like working out? What!? Something wrong with him?
So he tells you more that he does not feel like working out? What!? Something wrong with him?
amnesia:
i got suspended from high shcool for doing that !
March 23-
Have you been fantasizing about how great your life would be if only a certain obstacle would disappear? Be careful what you wish for -- getting it could just mean a whole new set of complications.
Have you been fantasizing about how great your life would be if only a certain obstacle would disappear? Be careful what you wish for -- getting it could just mean a whole new set of complications.
March 23-
Have you been fantasizing about how great your life would be if only a certain obstacle would disappear? Be careful what you wish for -- getting it could just mean a whole new set of complications.
March 24-
Feel like some roadblocks have been stopping you from pursuing your heart's desire? Turns out that those roadblocks might be in your own psyche. It's...
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Have you been fantasizing about how great your life would be if only a certain obstacle would disappear? Be careful what you wish for -- getting it could just mean a whole new set of complications.
March 24-
Feel like some roadblocks have been stopping you from pursuing your heart's desire? Turns out that those roadblocks might be in your own psyche. It's...
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on my mind:
Disease
Sadness
Marriage
Confusion
Work
Money (lack of)
Sleep
A guy
Family
Time
Zoloft
Candy
Clothes
Babies
Cars
Animals
Can you imagine how fast my mind is going right now? With me thinking about all that stuff it's freakin amazing. I'll start from the top.
Disease- Reading boards and thinking about problems that I have I'm sitting here wondering how many people...
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Disease
Sadness
Marriage
Confusion
Work
Money (lack of)
Sleep
A guy
Family
Time
Zoloft
Candy
Clothes
Babies
Cars
Animals
Can you imagine how fast my mind is going right now? With me thinking about all that stuff it's freakin amazing. I'll start from the top.
Disease- Reading boards and thinking about problems that I have I'm sitting here wondering how many people...
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This has not been edited, so what you read may sound kind of retarded. I'm too lazy right now.
Okay. My dad was adopted when he was a kid and was raised by a wonderful family. He knew his real mom and somewhat talked to her but held a grudge against her for how he was treated as a kid. she was a mean lady....
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Okay. My dad was adopted when he was a kid and was raised by a wonderful family. He knew his real mom and somewhat talked to her but held a grudge against her for how he was treated as a kid. she was a mean lady....
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pseudobrilliance:
That is a really beautiful way to look at it. Even if its kind of distant, I'm sorry for the loss in your family. I'm more sorry for the abuse that an imperfect woman had to endure at the hands of people who didn't care about her.
serragengar:
Sorry to hear your family's having a crappy time of things at the moment. You're right though, things will get better soon, and summers just around the corner.
I toss and turn
I'm having nightmares
dreaming of you....
I'm having nightmares
dreaming of you....
I shake, I tremble, I laugh out loud at nothing... I'm in love... Wait.. HA I forgot to take my crazy pill y0!... hahaha.. okay for reals though. I've been having mad crazy emotions. Crazy ones. My mind is confused. At night I close my eyes... Stage 1 sleep... any movement or sound makes my eyes flip open paranoid as if something is close to...
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