If your clothes catch fire, stop, drop and roll
(The sticker said)
If your heart is hurting and your brain is soggy bread,
Set your clothes alight and hurt from burns instead
(I said)
You are in the early stages of psychosis, here these pills will help
(She said)
AAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
(Said my brain dead head)
She is wrong, i am right, she is wrong i...
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Hang me as high as you like
I will be wearing trousers anyway
My neck snaps
Ha
I dance in public at last
pelirojo:
I tried killing myself a few times,
I wasn't good at that either.
I wasn't good at that either.
My problem
I would like everything as it is in my head
I would like to be perfect for you
The dissapointment of this impossibility renders me insane
Ripping and scaring my diseased, decaying brain
My thought organ does nothing but think of you
And taking a knife to my own face
And boiling hot water on blotchy white skin
And bowie singing Time
"But...
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A packet of cigerettes showing
through a sheer backpack, "Smoking
can cause a slow and
painful death".
The arms of the wearer
clutching her beloved child
Hoping for safety on a now trecherous
yet simple train journey
God speed the long and painful death
God halt the crushing of a childs head
between rail and wheel
through a sheer backpack, "Smoking
can cause a slow and
painful death".
The arms of the wearer
clutching her beloved child
Hoping for safety on a now trecherous
yet simple train journey
God speed the long and painful death
God halt the crushing of a childs head
between rail and wheel
soapbox:
Hows uni going?
pelirojo:
a vivid poetic painting appeared in my mind 
Ere mate, twenny p or I nick yur trainers.
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pelirojo:
the main thing I remember about september 11th was that after fucking everything up with my colombian girl who was my reason for living or trying to live. I thought finally these assholes at work, out there in TV land and in shopping malls have a small glimpse of how I feel all the time.
I've been doing so-so. sorry I haven't written any cynical, nihilistic or left any sarcastic comments in an attempt to kkep in touch I guess? I do every so oftenclick on your name to see if you've written anything, lately. 
yeah, its always no. But I can still hope you'll show up long before the easter bunny, santa claus, jesus, because at least you're real. 
I've been doing so-so. sorry I haven't written any cynical, nihilistic or left any sarcastic comments in an attempt to kkep in touch I guess?
I do every so oftenclick on your name to see if you've written anything, lately. yeah, its always no. But I can still hope you'll show up long before the easter bunny, santa claus, jesus, because at least you're real.
pelirojo:
where the bloody hell have you been?
Today I have eaten three Blueberry Muffins
And a slice of Carrot Cake
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pelirojo:
but I'm sure you still look lovely, oh sorry marvelous! 
soapbox:
ummmmmmmmm..............carrot cake.........................ummmmmmmmmmmmmmm
England should never be this hot
I got into university yesterday
Obsessively playing The Breeders and early Hole stuff.
Thinking of doing something insane with my hair
before i start uni
10:15pm. I have just seen an advert on the TV about the government maybe introducing a tax for fat people. A fat tax. They can not really do that, can they?
It reminded me...
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pelirojo:
there you are again throwing that english english in again!!! advert, I love it. we'd just say "ad" If there were a fat and stupid tax the US would still be the richest country.(well at least the government would get a lot of taxes. Which university are you attending? and the favorite follow up question of all time, What do you want to be when you grow up? 
I've been do allright with the shadowplay and my house keeping busy I still get down some, that's life. I agree it always good to throw away. destroy, change. re-do, its a phsysical way of jumpstarting your mentality into new ways of thought. 
Thank-you for the lovely comment about me tattoo as well!
advert, I love it. we'd just say "ad" If there were a fat and stupid tax the US would still be the richest country.(well at least the government would get a lot of taxes. Which university are you attending? and the favorite follow up question of all time, What do you want to be when you grow up? I've been do allright with the shadowplay and my house keeping busy I still get down some, that's life. I agree it always good to throw away. destroy, change. re-do, its a phsysical way of jumpstarting your mentality into new ways of thought. Thank-you for the lovely comment about me tattoo as well!
soapbox:
well done for getting into uni
terri9:
Misc
My Grandmother does Potatoes with everything
My Grandfather grumbles when there isn't any
Potatoes, Potatoes, Potatoes
With them anything goes
Everything taste's nicer with Potatoes
I have a university interview coming up.
My blotchy face points to inner turmoil.
I am actually feeling quite at ease and unusually self assured.
I pray all goes well, I have a feeling I might actually pull it off....
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pelirojo:
I love potatos. (and cheese ) Good luck with your interview. Yeah my self esteem and self-assurance or belief in myself can go from gung-ho to no-show. You are welcome and very deserving of the comment I left. I'm not very well at taking compliments (or critisizms for that matter) however It does feel good to hear them from people that aren't the most peachy, happy, friendly, outgoing people, becuase unlike most people thier comments are not much more than lip service, when it's from someone like us it took some thought, love and empathy to get past the self-loathing and try to help a fellow sufferer or sentient being for that manner. So you are more than welcome. It makes me feel warm all over to read that I made you smile. BYE
) Good luck with your interview. Yeah my self esteem and self-assurance or belief in myself can go from gung-ho to no-show. You are welcome and very deserving of the comment I left. I'm not very well at taking compliments (or critisizms for that matter) however It does feel good to hear them from people that aren't the most peachy, happy, friendly, outgoing people, becuase unlike most people thier comments are not much more than lip service, when it's from someone like us it took some thought, love and empathy to get past the self-loathing and try to help a fellow sufferer or sentient being for that manner. So you are more than welcome. It makes me feel warm all over to read that I made you smile. BYE
soapbox:
i hope they come off well to, other wise i will be pissed.....hehehe
good luck with the uni interveiw, where is it and what would you be doing?
i am glad you are feeling better then normal
take care
good luck with the uni interveiw, where is it and what would you be doing?
i am glad you are feeling better then normal
take care
Breed, breed, then move along
Mothers are such whore's
Art Teacher, Art Teacher, please try to save her
Idea for an Art project. My house wrapped, a la claude, with a banner bearing the text, NO DOOR TO DOOR SALES PEOPLE BUT DRUG DEALERS MORE THAN WELCOME (then in smaller text i would also announce that not only do you get paid for the mind...
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pelirojo:
I did read all of your journal.I don't have any words of wisdom or funny anecdote to distract or pretend to help you. I do have a lot of empathy for you and I'm glad you write this shit down than have it fester and cause a brain aneurism. We both know with our luck, we'd live and still be tortured unable to communicate and be kept alive in a worse hell. It's only this awful, most or sometimes, but not all the time, that's we hang on to to the positive or good times till they eventually turn into negative or bad memories.
It's only this awful, most or sometimes, but not all the time, that's we hang on to to the positive or good times till they eventually turn into negative or bad memories.
soapbox:
this makes your first journal entre much clearer now. i wont pretend to know what you are going through, as i don't. i can only empathize with you.
take it steady
take it steady
Dream (last night) 2.
A giant rat bit a triangle shaped slice from the tip of my big toe.
I had to kill it with a large bat.
It took several whack's.
I felt guilt.
Detrimental Plaster.
I am a see through plaster
Peeling, peeling
Slowly but speeding
Desperatly clinging
To something living, breathing
Slowly but speeding
Blood soaked and peeling
Almost feeling, almost
I...
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pelirojo:
Ever try Depekene (Valproic Acid)? That along with my fluoxetine makes me have the most fragmented,insane, bizzzare, hallucingenic, odd, dreams I've ever had.
Replacements are always shotty. unsturdy, cheaply made imitations of the orignial.
BYE -Pelirojo from across the pond.
Replacements are always shotty. unsturdy, cheaply made imitations of the orignial.
BYE -Pelirojo from across the pond.
Mediocre Tapioca.
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soapbox:
well just for you here it is again, hehe
Yeah i got bored very quickly of the other one.
Hope you are well
Yeah i got bored very quickly of the other one.
Hope you are well
soapbox:
Thanks for for the feed back on the tattoo. i am very happy with it. still very wired looking down at it and thanking that it's going to be there for ever.
take care
take care
I'm left handed and ambidexterous so I'm confused as fuck
I tried taking all of my pills at once and my body played a cruel trick on me and lived
Ain't it a bitch when you want to jump off a cliff and some other asshole is there before you thinking about doing the same thing