Wholey crap.
This is a battle. I guess I just have to learn control over my mind because this is stupid. I don't like the things my mind tells me and I hate it when it says it so much that I start to believe it. GAH!
So today I'm going shopping and I'll probably spaz out inside my head because I'm too fucking girly. I can smile, I can sing, I can talk with the best of them and inside my emotions are still in turmoil. I reaaaaaaaalllllllyyyyy don't like this. I haven't been depressed in over.. well, it's really been a while. It's been about 10 months since any severity. I know it. That's a long time to be happy and mainly content. Fuck you, chemicals in my head. What is it you don't want me to eat!?
At least this sing makes me happy-
"Murder on the Dance Floor"
Sophie Ellis Baxter
This is a battle. I guess I just have to learn control over my mind because this is stupid. I don't like the things my mind tells me and I hate it when it says it so much that I start to believe it. GAH!
So today I'm going shopping and I'll probably spaz out inside my head because I'm too fucking girly. I can smile, I can sing, I can talk with the best of them and inside my emotions are still in turmoil. I reaaaaaaaalllllllyyyyy don't like this. I haven't been depressed in over.. well, it's really been a while. It's been about 10 months since any severity. I know it. That's a long time to be happy and mainly content. Fuck you, chemicals in my head. What is it you don't want me to eat!?
At least this sing makes me happy-
"Murder on the Dance Floor"
Sophie Ellis Baxter
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Silly silly girl, you are a HAIRDRESSER! if you want to appear semi butch, or soft butch sometimes. Get a haircut thats both girly and a little more butch as well.
Its all about adaptability
any way i like you the way you are
made me
and giggling just a lil bit too..
(_|_) it makes me sad to hear bout yer upsettedness tho..
i just went thru a whole bunch of that. bills killed any happiness i had. but then i started reading books by SARK. *damn, that sounds all fuckin religious or sumthin*.. but they are awesome BRIGHT and cheery books that just help ya see the great stuff in life thats overlooked all the time.. and she writes in her own handwriting & draws randomly.. they are just great 'n' stuff.. ugh - ill shut up.
*Barnes&Noble sells 'em
*crazy author's site..
anyywaysss, i love yer hair..
i wish my color would stay bright like that all the time too..
it fades weekly - oh well!
stay beautiously silly my dear!!
[Edited on Sep 14, 2004 12:46AM]