tenpercentme

Do you know me?

My own definition of despondancy:

A vague sense of something being wrong, and a strong feeling of being unable to fix it.

Life is not on a scale of value.

Humans have set up a scale of value. Each of us has set up our own individual scales of value.

But beneath all of our creations, there is the truth of an existence that we did not create, and cannot create.

I wonder what a math major would think about my terminology...

TenPercentMe because I don't feel like I live the life of a suicide boy. I have no piercings. No tattoos. My girlfriend has dreads and multiple piercings but... still my life.

I feel like SG is a culture. I am not living in the culture, but a small part of the culture lives in me.

Alone, morning.

I don't speak too much to the people I know.

I turn to you instead, and ask you to hear me.

I want you to know:

I never want to take anything for granted. I don't want you to know my comfortable self. I want you to know the self I am pushing... and pushing. To the next level. But I can't always push. I am tired. I cannot make the decision. I cannot make this choice. I have been pampered by women too much in...
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What I like:

I like the absence of self-conscious behavior. I am very self-conscious therefore I am thrilled by people who do not seem to be so. Although a part of me thinks we are all self-conscious and we just deal with it in different ways. If that is true I am interested in people who deal with their self-consciousness in different ways from me....
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Oh, yes. Definitely time for a fresh perspective.

The funny thing about different, is that if you live with it long enough... it becomes the same.

Everything is about to change again. I return to my home tomorrow for 6-8 weeks. I will be teaching students how to make music videos.

It will be fun but it is just sinking in.