well... it's another day. i'm not certain that is entirely an improvement.
i'm home. i'm exhausted from being away for the last three months or so. since the middle of july i think my longest stretch at home has been 5 days. there was a time when i was so excited by travel. this year i was really tickled by an eleven day trip to japan which was beyond fabulous. the rest of it has felt like one long layover. i just got back from the bahamas. whenever i mention that to a real live human they snort, "ooh. i bet that was work!", like i was on fucking vacation. now that i have been there for work i can assure you i would never go there on vacation. i am also increasingly convinced that there is little reason to talk to real live human beings, especially those who snort.
i can couple exhaustion with the bad news that my sister is going in for more surgery. she has now been diagnosed with crohn's disease, so she will have random and painful digestive ailments for the rest of her life. she is so stoic about pain that it has taken quite some time for her doctors to figure out what it was. i really feel bad for her. karmically, i can think of no one that deserves this less. she's the sole good, not insane person to which i am related. they've taken so much plumbing out of her that it is now time to move on up and get some intestine for the removed body part collection. it'll go nicely on the mantle next to her reproductive system.
i have tickets to the dresden dolls show in chicago on saturday. i was very excited until i got the phone call from my sister. now, i know i will stand there in the back thinking about other things.
mortality is not turning out as noble as one would hope.
if i believed in god i could be angry at him/her.
i think i will go back to cleaning my air conditioner now. only one of those has died on me, and it was quite sudden. i am told it didn't feel any pain at all.
i'm home. i'm exhausted from being away for the last three months or so. since the middle of july i think my longest stretch at home has been 5 days. there was a time when i was so excited by travel. this year i was really tickled by an eleven day trip to japan which was beyond fabulous. the rest of it has felt like one long layover. i just got back from the bahamas. whenever i mention that to a real live human they snort, "ooh. i bet that was work!", like i was on fucking vacation. now that i have been there for work i can assure you i would never go there on vacation. i am also increasingly convinced that there is little reason to talk to real live human beings, especially those who snort.
i can couple exhaustion with the bad news that my sister is going in for more surgery. she has now been diagnosed with crohn's disease, so she will have random and painful digestive ailments for the rest of her life. she is so stoic about pain that it has taken quite some time for her doctors to figure out what it was. i really feel bad for her. karmically, i can think of no one that deserves this less. she's the sole good, not insane person to which i am related. they've taken so much plumbing out of her that it is now time to move on up and get some intestine for the removed body part collection. it'll go nicely on the mantle next to her reproductive system.
i have tickets to the dresden dolls show in chicago on saturday. i was very excited until i got the phone call from my sister. now, i know i will stand there in the back thinking about other things.
mortality is not turning out as noble as one would hope.
if i believed in god i could be angry at him/her.
i think i will go back to cleaning my air conditioner now. only one of those has died on me, and it was quite sudden. i am told it didn't feel any pain at all.