temptess

This darkness, my darkness
inside of me
hidden like so many black, glistening seeds
seething without heat
seeing without eyes
your hands upon me feel my darkness
love it, accept it
your hands upon me
make me whole
make me generous
your mouth upon mine
stirs all the good that ever
existed in me
your voice
the voice of an angel
tames something so wild
it has not a name
and
I see you willing
me to be right
to make sweet sacrifices
in your name
in the name of love
in the name of longevity and prosperity
all the intelligence in the world
cannot make a being whole
your hands upon me
they make me whole

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I've had dreams like this before
everything coherent and live
lucid dreams
The lucidity ebbs through,
soaks into my skin
affecting me
I dream as though you were here
your face in my mind
a picture
not unlike your voice
in my heart
you have permanent storage here
rent free, inviting
you into my bed
needing you so badly
needing you
so badly
needing you
to touch me, hold me, satisfy & satiate
your flesh like paper
my marked spoilt pen making
lines and designs
my generosity gets the best of me
my madness marries my generosity
the love and light live
where the sun shines hottest
though I know that
the intrigue and misery that I find
in pursuit
are the best I intend to get
out of this world
in my life?
my heart swells
to more large a proportion
than I would like to believe possible
I grow, but the wrong organs
and I want to cut and sever others
Make them so they work correctly
I cast this spell unto myself
I drank the poison before i met you,
and now I need the antidote
I need to be peppered with your sunshine,
your love
spraying down upon me
will work like magick
to remove the traces
left behind by others
to break me
the way i need to be broken.