temptess

I am a jerk! Occasionally at least, I should check this, change it and update the group. I am trying to procrastinate doing other things right now...

I believe I have been bitten...

No, I am not dead.
No, I did not get in an accident.
No, I did not gain 150 pounds and wind up incapable of getting out of bed for all the Krispy Kream I've been eating.

I have a boyfriend.
(I'm sure that's surprising (!) (?))

This is the longest I've gone without seeing him since we met (no, really) and I realized that...
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Grasping at straws,
these slippery fuckers
slip right through
my ever clenching hand
slip into the congealed mess
left where you once were
before you tossed me aside,
an emotional dereliction of your duties
the Fucked thing is,
I know that as soon as you walked out the door you were already hurting
you'll come back on bended knee
God, I hate this game
it...
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Okay...
After a long and much needed mental hiatus, i am gettin' it together. I have my art show/event next week which is taking mass time to complete and three paintings which I am desperately trying to finish before then. All in all, things are okay though i am trying to balance my wants and inadequacies yet again, trying to decide whether i can run...
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There's a certain point where i have to ask... why didn't i get accepted into the CIA?

I got arrested for a DUI after having one drink. The culprit? A very tight corset. My (very expensive) attorney said at the very worst they will give me a wet reckless, but that it should be reduced to an infraction due to a multitude of reasons. The...
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Played Houdini in the back of a police car. I don't have much else to say...

Happy Valentine's Day.

I hate this holiday...

I'm disgruntled

Somehow landed in a hot tub
something chemical fanning my flames
we danced as close as we could
without being inside eachother
and the room stood still,
not breathing, just watching
us
l'amour surfaced so easily and I
wondered why not so before
but my walls were down
and I was loveable
for once
and he shone like a silvery star
lighting me up
with...
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I'm trying to feel this out
my velvet-covered oblivion
my angel-faced tormentor
reeling in the scraps that are tossed
so carelessly oh so quietly
like a fisherman
fishing for...
fish, reeling in the line
throwing it back out
bait no bait
this confusion I hate
and all of the words
that are never said
I laugh at myself
my pout is but a pout
though...
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Was hiding in my bed for awhile. I had to shake off some pain and I lost my wallet with just short of a grand in it (yeah, I know, STUPID), but somehow it all worked out. I am super taxed at the moment and needing to get it together before I progress. Crazy stuff is afoot.

AM speechless. Ouch.

You let me down again
so here I am now
in my self-created purgatory
jonesing for what I haven't got
angry that I wasted time on
glorified flesh peddling
angry that you just couldn't wait
I'm wanting so badly to drown it out
with something stronger than you or I
wanting to wash
your scent from my sheets,
thoughts of you from my mind
wishing...
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