so last wednesday i totalled the front of my car. i didn't get hurt or die (atleast i don't think because i haven't seen bruce willis yet) but i'm trying not to feel like shit. really i just feel unmotivated. it is hard to be motivated to make something beautiful when everything falls. just to gloss on another post about the crash:
it was beautiful. does that make sense? i'm not wreckless. but i always did think i needed to crash to know about myself. and it was amazing. time literally stood still as i went from 70 mph to 0 in half a second. it was like an art film, no air bags deployed, air stoppd moving, i didn't breath, i just felt. i was scared. so scared but at the same time renewed.
i'm not crazy, just an idealist.
an artist.
someone that WANTs beauty, real beauty. yeah, that's all i gotta say.
it was beautiful. does that make sense? i'm not wreckless. but i always did think i needed to crash to know about myself. and it was amazing. time literally stood still as i went from 70 mph to 0 in half a second. it was like an art film, no air bags deployed, air stoppd moving, i didn't breath, i just felt. i was scared. so scared but at the same time renewed.
i'm not crazy, just an idealist.
an artist.
someone that WANTs beauty, real beauty. yeah, that's all i gotta say.