tegan

im so tired i think my head is going to roll right off my neck and fall into my lap. i cant keep my eyes wide open, im full of chamomile tea and coffee.

i worked all day today and now i have to run home and come back to where i am right now all within the next 30 minutes. then i get to work until 1.30am. tomorrow i get to do it all over again except i dont get off work until 3am and then i have to go to my friends house on the opposite end of town for her birthday. go say happy birthday to her by the way (keyeeks).

so, its confirmed, im flying to minneapolis on december 29th at 9am and im coming back to toronto on janurary the 3rd. im spending new years in iowa with my darling lovely benni. its going to be awesome. aparently we're going to make out at her aunts wedding to piss off her family members. fuck yeah.

i have a scratchy throat, it kind of hurts, maybe im kind of getting sick but im not too sure. it might just be because im completely exausted and i think im going to die? who knows.

im impatiently waiting for january to come now... i want to know if this wonderful fantatsic news of mine is going to work out for me or not. i hope it does... then muller should be expecting a call from a lady about a computer. yep.

christmas is coming up so soon. i still havent gotten my brother or my step dad anything yet becuase i dont know what to get them and now at work we're having a sercret santa and of course the person i got was the only dude at my work... what does a mid 20's english dude want for christmas?

i still havent found what im buying chloe.

the lawyer has been missing lately... he seems to only be a text message or a voice on someone else's telephone. i think im forgetting what he looks like. he should come to my work next week. yes... HE SHOULD.

im attempting to save money right now but all i have got is like 40 and an american 20. aparenlty im not good at this money saving thing.

im jageretting tonight.

theres some fancy billy talent party going on at the bovine.

i have wierd red blotches on my cheeks and i have no idea what they are from because i dont have acne at all. they arent like pimples more like some sort of rash? i dont know... its annoying me though i want whatever it is to go away.

theres been no sunshine here lately so i am thinking that i am going to go to a tanning bed to get me some vitamin D. it sucks going from having nice sunshine everyday to having it only once a week in the freezing cold. fuck this winter shit. fuck it. i hate it. with a passion.

i need a new day planner. and an alarm clock. right now im depending on my body to wake me up in time for work... its been working but one of these days its not going to and then im going to be late and get some sort of fine or something like that.

anyway, i guess... im tired. i have to go put on heaps of makeup and get ready for work.

im watching a jewish rapper right now. its wierd... hes beat boxing and singing in that hebrew. he almost looks like an amish dude. but sounds like sean paul.

i heard a journey song the other day and it reminded me of shera. i love journey... we bought the greatest hits album and listened to it the entire drive from denver to seattle. can you imagine me, shera, london, snow, violet and brandy all singing journey? i was really stoned that day. really really stoned. and i got beefaroni all over my emo pants.

alright... i have to go.

xo.
t.