teejayz

so hypothetical question for you:

Have you ever been looking for something really really hard, but not known what it is exactly in which you seek? However you know that if you find you'll know that that indeed was it?

Yea, thats how I feel... Wait what? haha I know its confusing, I wrote it and I might be more confused then you. I like to think of myself as a very wise person when it comes to dating and relationships. The content may change relationship to relationship but inevitably the structure, the concepts, those all remain the same.

I've become quite picky, and cynical about alot of things when it comes to relationships. I have taken a "show me" attitude towards most women. But before you say it, don't worry... that part doesn't show, and it doesn't make me any less "available". Its just something I keep in the back of my mind for whatever reason.

I don't wanna be burned again, none of us do, tho I know that you can never truly enjoy a relationship until you throw caution to the wind. I just wanna find those butterflies that I haven't felt in quite some time.

That feeling that makes your heart skip a beat when you get a call / text from them. The lovely status updates. The silly pictures you take together. All things I want... I'm just so damn picky.

At what point does it become less of the girls not matching me, and more about me not matching those girls. I just want that great chemistry that goes into any good relationship, but maybe the bond I'm looking for has been so watered down with cliche movie endings, and storybook fairytales.

I know something will click again, but sometimes finding the right person is like finding a needle in a haystack. And oh yea, you're blind and deaf too... Haha, kinda how I feel about it. Idk... just some questions that I don't even know if I want answered, just stuff to ponder over me thinks... No reason for panic, its not a cry for help... just some ideas that I'm kicking around in my brain thats always working overtime.

React to me!