tedbedlam

I have a shoot tomorrow. I have a shoot tomorrow. I have a shoot tomorrow. I need it so fucking much I don't like it. It's as if being behind the camera is the only way I can feel right again. Like love like love like love. Behind the electronic retina I and all are beautiful. Hideous elegance. Ordinary gorgeousness. The worst part is I know my life begins and ends in those few minutes. After, I am again in a world I don't believe in, and a world in which I cannot and could not belong to.I cannot sleep for night three and all I can do is wait. I am glad to have something held dear and something which has given me its warmth in return.