Getting more angry and depressed by the day. Really wish I had no contact with people through the internet, found out through facebook Caitlin is now in a relationship. Nothing else seems to be going all that well either. Probably just going to take a few weeks off from people all together, try to work on entrance essays and detach myself from everyone I can. I know that I will probably never be okay but I'm trying to at least survive beyond my own emotional BS. Fuck it, I can't relate to people. Fine. I can't be happy alone, fine. I'll just be a observing non-participant until a bullet reaches my brain. God I am just so shitty right now and I want somewhere to go and someone to be with but it's not and they aren't so I am just fucking shitty. Instead I just get to go to work. I think I should delete almost every bit of me online that can be connected directly to people I know. I get too affected by this shit and it makes me feel less connected to the world rather than more. I wish to fuck I was happy and had a girl who gave a shit.
hopelessaddict:
I don't have anything to say that can console you ... my words are just bullshiit. But, I did read this and I do feel the same way on a lot of it...