Well the good news is that I have lost 32 pounds since April 24th. I unfortunately went off my diet. I am back on it but I need to get reorganized and recommitted. I really want to continue losing weight and try out for a few different departments. I need to get into shape and continue with restoring my credit. Its a bitch being broke and wanting to do good things I guess. As of late I have not done anything but work as a cook for the campus catering department. I enjoy the work still but I want more hours. I was really bored but today I start classes again. I have class at 8:45 in the morning which sucks ass but I will make do with it. I am staying up all night tonight so I do not oversleep and can hopefully get into a more manageable schedule for the year. I need to go pick up the text books for the class.
As of late I am lonely. I am really really lonely down here. I still have no friends and I dont really care much for the people around here, except for Sonny. Everyone else can die and I would not really mind. I know it sounds horrible but I really do not feel any connections to anyone around here. My only goal right now is to get this done. I want to get in shape and get my shit together ASAP. Its becoming more of a possibility for me. I feel like that at times but at other times I feel hopeless. Either way I guess I just need some support.
Speaking of loneliness and support, I really miss Jenny. I called her last night but I got no answer and I tried the night before but her Dad said she was gone and he didnt know what time she would be back. It was to late to call after that so I decided not to. I want to call her tonight and just talk to her. Its just so fucking lonely down here with nobody to talk to. I guess I just want a familiar voice. Not to mention I just really miss her company. I dont know anymore.
I would hang out with Sonny but he is always with Sonya or at work. I guess I am coming to resent Sonya because she really hogs all of his time. At times she is a real bitch and a spoiled brat. For example she has an internship with some company selling services. And she was making him go with her to the potential clients because she does not know her way around. Well this is her hometown, she has lived here for 22 years. You would think she would have figured it out by now. How fucking stupid can someone be? Well she wants Sonny to get up at 8:00 am and go with her. Sonny overslept and she started telling him that she never wanted to talk to him again and all that shit. See Sonny left the door unlocked so she could come and get him up. I locked it because I like my house secure. Anyways neither of us would be woken up by the doorbell so nobody answered the door. Well I felt bad and had an extra key made for her. And she lost it within 10 minutes. I know this because she was supposed to come over the next day and open the door. Well Sonny said not to lock it as it is in the bottom of her purse. I could not believe that she did not put it onto the keyring with her car and house keys. What an idiot.
Anyways I am really annoyed with her but I understand Sonny's desire to be around her. She treats him like a cash register, or so it seems, and she just leads him around. The problem is that they are not even dating and she still does this shit. I am sorry but if they were a couple it would be different. And I know Sonny is crazy about her but she does not seem to care about that. I dont like to see it. I know it sounds a lot like myself and Jenny but the difference is I keep a lot of that stuff private from my friends. Sonny does not know much about her or how she makes me feel. Either way I dont know what goes through his mind at times and sometimes I do. I just want to tell him that she is going to shit on him because I see it coming. The worst part is I see him asking her to marry him when he is done with school.
I am tired and unfortunately class starts in 2 1/2 hours. I want to sleep and just not go but I cant do that. Sonny intends to start going to the gym today and I agreed I would. But I am not sure that will happen beause Sonny says a lot of things but usually fails to carry through with them. Either way I just know that I will be going to bed early tonight. Like around 9 pm or 10 pm at the latest. I need to get on a regular schedule for class and work. As well as I would like to start going to the gym in the mornings. I dont think I would carry out but it sounds like a good idea.
As of late I have been wanting to buy "The Wire: Season 2" on DVD. I really dig the show a lot. I bought "Ghostrider" and I feel like I am owed a refund. It was horrible and the acting made me angry because I felt insulted. Some of the special effects were ok but I do think they could have done a much better job. The story would have been great if they geared the dialogue towards adults and did not make it so cheesy. I like Nicolas Cage in some movies but usually hate him in action films. He just is not cut out for it. The cheesy lines the villian said were so predictable and I felt I was watching a B movie with a budget. Unfortunately they spent the budget on getting Cage and Eva Mendes (who is still incredibly hot in some scenes but ugly in others).
As of right now I want to start reading more but I have classes now which sucks. I need to get A's to bring up my GPA. That is my overall educational goal right now. I am taking a bullshit 101 course, Introduction to Criminal Justice. It will probably be a cakewalk which is what I need. After that I am taking a 200 level course on Corrections. Hopefully another cakewalk.
The good news is I got "Rage Against The Machine" tickets along with "Ozzfest" tickets. I am really excited to see RATM as that will bring me back to the old days. In high school I was a huge RATM fan and I loved to just see them in concert.
Anyways I am going to go shower and watch some of Penn and Tellers "Bullshit". I hope you all are doign well.
Cheers.
Tecumseh
As of late I am lonely. I am really really lonely down here. I still have no friends and I dont really care much for the people around here, except for Sonny. Everyone else can die and I would not really mind. I know it sounds horrible but I really do not feel any connections to anyone around here. My only goal right now is to get this done. I want to get in shape and get my shit together ASAP. Its becoming more of a possibility for me. I feel like that at times but at other times I feel hopeless. Either way I guess I just need some support.
Speaking of loneliness and support, I really miss Jenny. I called her last night but I got no answer and I tried the night before but her Dad said she was gone and he didnt know what time she would be back. It was to late to call after that so I decided not to. I want to call her tonight and just talk to her. Its just so fucking lonely down here with nobody to talk to. I guess I just want a familiar voice. Not to mention I just really miss her company. I dont know anymore.
I would hang out with Sonny but he is always with Sonya or at work. I guess I am coming to resent Sonya because she really hogs all of his time. At times she is a real bitch and a spoiled brat. For example she has an internship with some company selling services. And she was making him go with her to the potential clients because she does not know her way around. Well this is her hometown, she has lived here for 22 years. You would think she would have figured it out by now. How fucking stupid can someone be? Well she wants Sonny to get up at 8:00 am and go with her. Sonny overslept and she started telling him that she never wanted to talk to him again and all that shit. See Sonny left the door unlocked so she could come and get him up. I locked it because I like my house secure. Anyways neither of us would be woken up by the doorbell so nobody answered the door. Well I felt bad and had an extra key made for her. And she lost it within 10 minutes. I know this because she was supposed to come over the next day and open the door. Well Sonny said not to lock it as it is in the bottom of her purse. I could not believe that she did not put it onto the keyring with her car and house keys. What an idiot.
Anyways I am really annoyed with her but I understand Sonny's desire to be around her. She treats him like a cash register, or so it seems, and she just leads him around. The problem is that they are not even dating and she still does this shit. I am sorry but if they were a couple it would be different. And I know Sonny is crazy about her but she does not seem to care about that. I dont like to see it. I know it sounds a lot like myself and Jenny but the difference is I keep a lot of that stuff private from my friends. Sonny does not know much about her or how she makes me feel. Either way I dont know what goes through his mind at times and sometimes I do. I just want to tell him that she is going to shit on him because I see it coming. The worst part is I see him asking her to marry him when he is done with school.
I am tired and unfortunately class starts in 2 1/2 hours. I want to sleep and just not go but I cant do that. Sonny intends to start going to the gym today and I agreed I would. But I am not sure that will happen beause Sonny says a lot of things but usually fails to carry through with them. Either way I just know that I will be going to bed early tonight. Like around 9 pm or 10 pm at the latest. I need to get on a regular schedule for class and work. As well as I would like to start going to the gym in the mornings. I dont think I would carry out but it sounds like a good idea.
As of late I have been wanting to buy "The Wire: Season 2" on DVD. I really dig the show a lot. I bought "Ghostrider" and I feel like I am owed a refund. It was horrible and the acting made me angry because I felt insulted. Some of the special effects were ok but I do think they could have done a much better job. The story would have been great if they geared the dialogue towards adults and did not make it so cheesy. I like Nicolas Cage in some movies but usually hate him in action films. He just is not cut out for it. The cheesy lines the villian said were so predictable and I felt I was watching a B movie with a budget. Unfortunately they spent the budget on getting Cage and Eva Mendes (who is still incredibly hot in some scenes but ugly in others).
As of right now I want to start reading more but I have classes now which sucks. I need to get A's to bring up my GPA. That is my overall educational goal right now. I am taking a bullshit 101 course, Introduction to Criminal Justice. It will probably be a cakewalk which is what I need. After that I am taking a 200 level course on Corrections. Hopefully another cakewalk.
The good news is I got "Rage Against The Machine" tickets along with "Ozzfest" tickets. I am really excited to see RATM as that will bring me back to the old days. In high school I was a huge RATM fan and I loved to just see them in concert.
Anyways I am going to go shower and watch some of Penn and Tellers "Bullshit". I hope you all are doign well.
Cheers.
Tecumseh
The Wire is phenomenal, the last "great" HBO show still running of the classics.