tecumseh1981

I apologize for the long period between updates. I have been stressing out with classes. Midterms are almost here. I joined the debate team and am going to Kansas City, Missouri for my first debate over springbreak. I have been so busy trying to figure out my homework and just playing catchup. I am worried about my GPA and in particular one class has been stressing me out very much, my Sociology 206 class. It is harder than any other class I have taken in college.

In other news Emily is just confusing me very much. I really like her and she is a really sweet girl. Sweeter than most girls I have met recently. However I think she has gotten back together with her boyfriend. But I think that at times she doesnt want to be with him. She says things like she wants to get her own place and live with her friends. Or that is the problem is that he is always there.

Usually I try to suggest hanging out and going to a movie. Well on Friday she suggested we go on Saturday afternoon. Well Saturday we were both busy with study groups and we ended up missing the movie. Though myself, Emily, and this guy Scott (he is a real cool Muslim dude) had lunch over at the cafe in the student center. She said she could not go to the movies because it was later.

This leads me to believe that she is able to go out when her boyfriend is not around. She signs on AIM all the time and the first thing she does is IM me. That really cheers me up. Usually we just chat about class but then it turns into other stuff. But the fact that she IMs me automatically is really nice. She called me once to see if I wanted to visit her at her work and I went. However she later said that she is not really into talking over the phone but I think it is because her bofreind is in the room or the next room. She also signs off AIM very abruptly sometimes and doesnt say goodbye. I really think it is because her boyfriend walks in the room.

Either way I understand her reluctance to leave her boyfriend or what ever is going on because she has nowhere else to go. Her family is in Oregon and she doesnt really have any friends here. I think the friends she has here are her boyfriends friends and that is why she is hesitatant because she has no one else.

Anyways I really have been ok with not talking to Jenny. Sometimes I feel the desire to call her or to hear her voice. I really want to go see sometimes her but I have been able to reign those feelings in. I really feel ok with it. She gave me my money back and I am cool. I really need to improve myself. I am too fat right now and need to buy that bike. I will do that soon because I really need to. It will also allow me to leave the house for some other reason than a walk in the middle of the night.

Me and Sonny are also going to join the gym. He already has but he has not gone once. And I keep procrastinating by making excuses as to why I cannot go sign up today.

Well I apologize to all my loyal readers. Class is just a huge pain in the as right now. I promise to try to write more.

Cheers.

Tecumseh