Well its been ok so far. I have been working a lot lately. I usually end up closing the store, which closes at 10. I am usually out by 11 or so. With practice it will be sooner, or at least that is what they tell me. I enjoy the fact that I have a job and it gives me something to do which is nice. I feel good having something to do even though I do not enjoy my job all that much. I just feel that I should be further on in my life. I wish that I had a better job and was at a further point in my life.
I really have been thinking of buying a car but I dont think I should. Yet it would be very nice to have as I would really like the freedom to come and go as I please. And yet I find that as of late I have nowhere to go. I usually go grab some food, a video, and then come home. My friends are usually to busy or at home (they live a good 30 minutes away so getting together is a pain when everyone has to get up in the morning) or something comes up. I dont know what I want except that I do not have it.
I realize that I need to get out of here more and more but a small part of me wants to stay. I just think that I would appreciate life more if it went the way I wanted it to for a change. I want to get in shape, go back to school, find a nice girl to fall in love with, and get my dream job. How simple is that? Yet it seems that all of those are impossiblities for me. I often wonder why life seems so easy for some people and so hard for others. I get angry when I think about it. It seems that God goes against me at times and I do not know why. I have been having a lot of trouble with my faith. Partially due to the book I have been reading, A letter to a Christian Nation, by Sam Harris. It is an excellent read and brings up a lot of good points about Christianity (and other religions though the book focuses on Christians).
I am also reading the Steven King book "The Wizard and The Glass". It is a slow book but it is my bathroom read. I usually keep a book in the bathroom so I have something to do. I know it sounds sick or whatever but quite a few people keep something in there to pass the time. Anyways I plan to finish it after I finish this since this Sam Harris book is a quick 100 pages or so.
I am also in the midst of season 2 of BattleStar Galactica. I love this show. My friend is letting me borrow his box sets and I am totally in awe of how cool this show is. I really dig Sci-Fi shows and wish we had the Sci-Fi channel. I also want to bo buy "The Unit" season 1 since I have heard I will enjoy that a lot. And I have to go get my Band of Brothers Box back from Josh. I really wish that they make a few more mini-series based on Stephen Ambrose books. I loved that series.
Speaking of Josh, he is talking about going back to school once again. It would be a huge fucking load off of my mind if he came with me. I think he would enjoy himself more and I could use some friends when I am there. It would be cool to have him as a roommate and to have him around more. I will try to bother him into going back to school.
Speaking of school, University of IL at Chicago rejected me. However I was accepted into my chosen school, the U of Washington. Unfortunatley it is the evening degree program. I was unable to find any more information and they called me back but I was at work. Anyways I want to hear more about it and will call again. I need to find housing and other things while I am out there. I am hoping to move off campus but I will settle for on campus if I must. However storing my guns may be a problem but I have heard it is not there. I also would like my own room and to not have a roommate. I am used to having my own room and would rather not have to share one again.
Either way I will find out more information and post it as I go along. I have also in the back of my mind been thinking of IL State in Bloomington-Normal. My friend Sonny is there and he said I could room with him in the fall. Brad is supposed to go there in the fall as well so we would be roommates. However I know Brad will not go so I am thinking of seeing what Sonny says. It would be cool to live with him and all but I am kind of looking to get the fuck out of the Midwest. Just need to get somewhere else and spread my wings. Nothing more really.
Either way I am going to watch some BattleStar and head to bed.
Cheers.
I really have been thinking of buying a car but I dont think I should. Yet it would be very nice to have as I would really like the freedom to come and go as I please. And yet I find that as of late I have nowhere to go. I usually go grab some food, a video, and then come home. My friends are usually to busy or at home (they live a good 30 minutes away so getting together is a pain when everyone has to get up in the morning) or something comes up. I dont know what I want except that I do not have it.
I realize that I need to get out of here more and more but a small part of me wants to stay. I just think that I would appreciate life more if it went the way I wanted it to for a change. I want to get in shape, go back to school, find a nice girl to fall in love with, and get my dream job. How simple is that? Yet it seems that all of those are impossiblities for me. I often wonder why life seems so easy for some people and so hard for others. I get angry when I think about it. It seems that God goes against me at times and I do not know why. I have been having a lot of trouble with my faith. Partially due to the book I have been reading, A letter to a Christian Nation, by Sam Harris. It is an excellent read and brings up a lot of good points about Christianity (and other religions though the book focuses on Christians).
I am also reading the Steven King book "The Wizard and The Glass". It is a slow book but it is my bathroom read. I usually keep a book in the bathroom so I have something to do. I know it sounds sick or whatever but quite a few people keep something in there to pass the time. Anyways I plan to finish it after I finish this since this Sam Harris book is a quick 100 pages or so.
I am also in the midst of season 2 of BattleStar Galactica. I love this show. My friend is letting me borrow his box sets and I am totally in awe of how cool this show is. I really dig Sci-Fi shows and wish we had the Sci-Fi channel. I also want to bo buy "The Unit" season 1 since I have heard I will enjoy that a lot. And I have to go get my Band of Brothers Box back from Josh. I really wish that they make a few more mini-series based on Stephen Ambrose books. I loved that series.
Speaking of Josh, he is talking about going back to school once again. It would be a huge fucking load off of my mind if he came with me. I think he would enjoy himself more and I could use some friends when I am there. It would be cool to have him as a roommate and to have him around more. I will try to bother him into going back to school.
Speaking of school, University of IL at Chicago rejected me. However I was accepted into my chosen school, the U of Washington. Unfortunatley it is the evening degree program. I was unable to find any more information and they called me back but I was at work. Anyways I want to hear more about it and will call again. I need to find housing and other things while I am out there. I am hoping to move off campus but I will settle for on campus if I must. However storing my guns may be a problem but I have heard it is not there. I also would like my own room and to not have a roommate. I am used to having my own room and would rather not have to share one again.
Either way I will find out more information and post it as I go along. I have also in the back of my mind been thinking of IL State in Bloomington-Normal. My friend Sonny is there and he said I could room with him in the fall. Brad is supposed to go there in the fall as well so we would be roommates. However I know Brad will not go so I am thinking of seeing what Sonny says. It would be cool to live with him and all but I am kind of looking to get the fuck out of the Midwest. Just need to get somewhere else and spread my wings. Nothing more really.
Either way I am going to watch some BattleStar and head to bed.
Cheers.
I was watching "Halloween: Ressurection" last night and know who's in it? STARBUCK! I'm all by myself and just yelled at the tv: "Hey! That's totally Starbuck!"