techno_ballerina

I want to rip my uterus out, and feed it to my dog. I swear to god. I get every goddamn symptom when I'm on my period (or pmsing)...fever, fatigue, headaches, major bloating and cramps to where I cannot walk, you name it. Plus...I get really, really emotional. Back in the days when I was cutting, I always did it every day when I was on my period. My moods go up and down so easily.

I hate how men need a reason for everything. My boss (the store manager) kept on asking why my eyes were red and why it looked like I had been crying. Sweet guy, seemed like he wanted to get to the bottom of things. I blurted out "What...Why can't be sad once in awhile? Do I need a reason for everything?" I immediately regretted saying that, I apologized like mad. He patted me on the shoulder and said it was cool. He rocks like that. But really...I crack over everything now. Doesn't matter if I make the wrong turn while driving or realized I wanted cranberry juice instead of apple from the vending machines at school...I start bawling. It's interesting to think what I'll be like when I'm pregnant. At least I'll be done with my period before I go to see Phillipe. I don't need to put him through that (YET, *evil laugh*)

Yeah...sorry the last two entries have been on the topic of my girlness. Meh.