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It occured to me yesterday that everyone in my acting class, sans the teacher, takes me as being DEADLY serious. That hasn't quite happened before. I'm taking my quiet badass moments as I can get them, because it's only a matter of time before I just get tired of it. The teacher, the dick, is fully aware that I'm taking precious little seriously in this...
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So the headache I thought I'd get is now banging on the door. Bah. The one notion of headaches I've never understood is that they seem to come after something major, be it positive or negative. You gotta love a minor fear of having too GOOD a time.

Class was class Monday. Music was good, Acting is better. Things are in motion.

Okay, well some...
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Good weekend. Best there's been in forever. It's weird; you get so used to thinking about things a certain way, and even though you know it's completely wrong, it still surprises you (in a good way) when it's pointed out to you how fucking nuts your thought process had been for entirely too long. It's kinda hard to explain, but sometimes I really do feel...
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I'm seriously considering buying a hat like Tom Waits. I think I could pull it off.

That music class...I love it, but man, there's a weird demographic. I can't fathom the fact that half the class --which is twenty or so people-- had never heard Frank Sinatra. That just makes my head hurt. Never hearing the Righteous Brothers is a little more understandable, I guess,...
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I've noticed, when it comes to anxiety, that there's a point where it just becomes too tight, like a guitar string. And then it snaps, and suddenly things, while fucked up, are suddenly worlds easier to deal with because the strain is gone. So, today was a good day, in that regard.

Today's deal in the music class was great. I love this class. Need...
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So, hey, anxiety. What a brilliant thing. It just doesn't leave. You'd think I was related to it. I really don't know what to really DO at this point; it's been nearly a week, and for some reason, I feel the exact same as I did when it started, despite having no real reason to at this point. Nothing is really helping, and I feel...
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A few notes:

---I'm having a hardcore panic/anxiety attack, and have been since this time yesterday. Would love to have someone around, but no one seems to be there. I don't know what anyone could do, exactly, but just having someone to talk to would be nice. I hate saying that, because it makes me feel egocentric, but still...I'm not doing well.

---Almost sure Sac...
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I've decided the appropriate term for the effects Jager has on me is "intellectually surly." Which is why I hereby retire(d) from it (a week ago). Thinking MORE when drunk isn't a very good thing for me. Stuck with beer last night; had five, paid for three. The fuck is that about? Good time was had; that Frontline99 is a good one.

I do sometimes...
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I love Tina Fey, however I find "30 Rock" to be generally subpar. This has nothing to do with anything, but it's on, and it's maybe the most hot and cold running sitcom going. TV is generally relegated to background noise anymore, but still, there's moments. That blonde chick from "Ally McBeal" is wretched, though.

Heading out Saturday, doubt anyone is coming. I'm not all...
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Feeling better. It gets better until I fall asleep, then it all goes to hell.

Apparently these nasty as fuck storms are coming in later tonight and tomorrow. Which is not all that cool, because I need to head out downtown soon. Meh. I keep saying I'll buy an umbrella, but then I realize how ridiculous I'd look with one, so I never do it....
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