Good weekend. Best there's been in forever. It's weird; you get so used to thinking about things a certain way, and even though you know it's completely wrong, it still surprises you (in a good way) when it's pointed out to you how fucking nuts your thought process had been for entirely too long. It's kinda hard to explain, but sometimes I really do feel overwhelmed by the people in my life who are important to me.
So hey, fuck Tom Brady. And the Patriots. Only took a fucking season, but man, it was so cool. It was like "Rocky 2," except not. Which is totally fine. Now I want to watch "Rocky." And I don't want to hear another word about...that commercial, because I got like six IMs about it, and fuck that. Like the last thing I want to hear about. So yes, beyond that, awesome game.
I'm thinking way too much about a few things. Not quite overthinking, but still. Apparently I'm quite transparent to several. Yeah.
I'm actually in a crazy good mood, but at the same time I'm also really annoyed and really anxious. The good mood is nice. The annoyance-to-borderline-anger is sort of nothing, but at the same time, one of those things. The anxiety is just leftover bullshit, mostly, and this weird new kind of positive anxiety that just pisses me off because it seems to contradict itself.
elicit77 and I are going to hang out in a bit. Miss that dude.
Things are going to change. I can feel it. It'll be for the better, because that's just how I roll. I really, really wish I could think more clearly about everything. Tomorrow is classes, and the week is looking good. All I ask is that I have some kind of...clarity. I feel like I've grown up some in the last couple months, and it would be really nice to have it mean something.
And with that, I've got beer to enjoy.
Later.
So hey, fuck Tom Brady. And the Patriots. Only took a fucking season, but man, it was so cool. It was like "Rocky 2," except not. Which is totally fine. Now I want to watch "Rocky." And I don't want to hear another word about...that commercial, because I got like six IMs about it, and fuck that. Like the last thing I want to hear about. So yes, beyond that, awesome game.
I'm thinking way too much about a few things. Not quite overthinking, but still. Apparently I'm quite transparent to several. Yeah.
I'm actually in a crazy good mood, but at the same time I'm also really annoyed and really anxious. The good mood is nice. The annoyance-to-borderline-anger is sort of nothing, but at the same time, one of those things. The anxiety is just leftover bullshit, mostly, and this weird new kind of positive anxiety that just pisses me off because it seems to contradict itself.
elicit77 and I are going to hang out in a bit. Miss that dude.
Things are going to change. I can feel it. It'll be for the better, because that's just how I roll. I really, really wish I could think more clearly about everything. Tomorrow is classes, and the week is looking good. All I ask is that I have some kind of...clarity. I feel like I've grown up some in the last couple months, and it would be really nice to have it mean something.
And with that, I've got beer to enjoy.
Later.
toez:
wow... Lots of emotions running rampant in that blog. Have fun with Paul!