tatum

I just watched Amelie for the first time. A lot of my friends had told me to watch it and now I see why they loved it so much. I could see myself in the main character so much.
Every since I was a little girl, I watched people. They're fascinating creatures to watch. I was like the tiny old men in the malls waiting for their beloved wives to finish their shopping, always staring at the people in their own little lives passing by. I know I've made people uncomfortable before but I can't help myself. I love to see how different people interact with each other. How the shy boy flirts with a girl and how he shuffles his feet, how the football player spews out endless comments during class until the teacher gets fed up and punishes him, and seeing the smiles forming on the students he's picked on. I was always the poet sitting in the corners, the shadows, scribbling away in my notebooks. What they didn't know was that I was watching them. Sometimes I would get brave enough to help the ones I saw in pain, sitting with the nerd in the cafeteria because she was lonely, things like that. I always did tiny things that no one noticed.
I guess that's how I still am. Leaving messages in peoples' journals here. Knowing that I could make you smile when you're sad makes me so happy. Elise tells me that I've made her a better person and this makes my soul shine more than she knows.