tattooeddad71

I am VERY bitter this morning........


Having severe side effects to my medications. Sucks ass.........


Yesterday I went over to my parent's house and EXPLAINED how desperate our financial situation is right now, in depth. I told them that basically if we didn't get some help that our power could be shut off after Tuesday and that our CAR would be repossessed if the money was not Western Union'ed to to our lender by 5pm on Thursday. Moneywise , things are THAT bad right now. My dad is a DOCTOR, a very WELL TO DO doctor, with a LOT of cash. My entire life I have borrowed or received "help" from my folks in the amount of LESS than $3, 000. My parents did not pay for ANY of my schooling, I paid for all of it. They never bought me a car, I did it on my own, etc , etc. Basically, anything I ever wanted or needed, I BOUGHT. MY dad's opinion was if you pay for it, you'll appreciate it.
However, NOW, I am almost 36. I am terminally ill. I have to constantly go to the doctor for one health issue or another. My family really needs help from my folks to stay above water. I only have ONE sibling my brother Kevin, who is 13 years younger than me. MY folks just paid over $125, 000 for Kevin to go to UC DAVIS for 4 years. They also paid all his bills, rent, groceries, etc the WHOLE time he was there. That is, he did not work while away at school, only on his breaks in the summer, etc. He has worked on/off at Target here for like the last 4-5 years or so to earn spending money that he did NOT put towards school, it was FUN money for games, movies, CD's etc.
My brother did graduate 2 months ago with a Double majjor in Psychology and Communication, and a Minor in English. He has 3 degrees now, and you know what, he's BACK to being the fucking cart round up bitch at Target. That's right, my folks just paid over $125K + for my brother to round up shopping carts for $7 hour, cuz I guarantee you NO ONE in their right mind will hire my brother for what he got degrees in. My brother is the UBER-GEEK, no personality, fucktard of all fucktards. I love the guy, he's my baby bro, but he is socially inept, never makes eye contact with ANYBODY, and basically is just a goof, pure and simple. He is a good person, but YES, I am fucking jealous as hell, that he just got the ride of the century on my parent's dime (they are in the process of buying him a NEW CAR as well) , yet, I have to BEG for fucking help , for my FAMILY's sake. In fairness, my folks are great people and VERY generous. They spoil my 3 kids rotten, ROTTEN!. But if something like this comes up, we get the shaft.
So, my Dad came over last night and said "I'm not going to help you out. You guys got in over your head with that car last summer, YOU fix your problem, we're not helping you anymore....."
Dad knows I have HIGH blood pressure and am on 3 different RX meds for my blood pressure and heart probs. My docs have said I am a ticking time bomb ready tohave a 2nd heart attack any minute from the amount of stress and pain I am dealing with on a daily basis, yet he was VERY snide when he said NO last nightt, like he was rubbing it in or something?

Not only are my feelings hurt, but I am fucking PISSED OFF!!! WTF??? Why does my brother get $$$ up the ASS, and I have to beg? All my wife and I need from them was like $800 to get caught up on our car payments and our power bill. I would have repaid this $ back to them with our next tax refund in January. I don't believe my brother has any intentions of repaying ANY of the money he got to my folks/ Yet all the money my folks have ever loaned me has been repaid, every fucking dime of it!!!

I told my wife last night, if I am ever fortunate enough to A) get a record deal or B) win the lottery, I'm not giving my folks a fucking PENNY!! People always try to take care of their family in situations like these. FUCK 'EM!!! You would let us have our power turned off and lose our car to prove some kind of principle to ME?

Maybe I AM a horrible son. Yes, I have addictions. Yes , I swear like a sailor. Yes, I am covered in tattoos and sing in a rock band and didnt finish college and get some fascinating career. I lived my life the way I wanted to live it. I have pursued music (and comedy briefly) as my career since I was 16. I am dying now, and I am NOT fucking giving up. I will make it, hell or high water. So they obviously hate me. I have more friends, amazing friends at that, than I can count. Our FRIENDS have been the ones that have helped us out and kept my family afloat, NOT my folks. Our church has paid our rent more times than I can remember, put groceries in my house, etc. My folks have lavished on the kids, bought us groceries 3 times, and loaned us money once to pay our car registration when we first got married, and That's IT!!! Hmmmm..? I get maybe around 3K and my brother who's a lazy fucktard get over 125K????? I guess I know who the favorite son is??? Oh yeah, I almost forgot. MY older two kids are insulin dependent diabetics. Our out of pocket medical expenses EVERY month are between $600-700. Occasionally my dad is able to get us free insulin for the kids. But all the extra RX's we pick up to put at my folks house so when the kids are there they have the supplies they need, that's right, you guessed it, WE PAY FOR IT. MY folks dont pay for ANY of the RX's we pick up for their house. We have even asked them to and they say "why should we pay for it, they aren't our kids?"

I am sooooo beyond fucking angry right now......and stressed the fuck out where I'm gonna pull $800 out of my fucking ass before Tues and Thurs this week.....????