6/5/06
It's going to sound like a downer but it's not meant to. I got a phone call last night from my Mom and my wife answered it and said "you have to take this, something's wrong". My heart immediately sunk knowing that A) my favorite uncle is in the throes of Alzheimers and I am always thinkng about him and B) I found out 2 weeks ago that my Cousin Carla is dying of cancer and is NOT expected to make it much longer. I don't answer the home phone very much, I screen all calls. Anyways, my mom goes "first of all, evrything is ok" which of course means something bad has happened. My grandma (Dads's mom) fell Sat night and the paramedics had to be called. She's 78 and was refusing treatment. My aunt's called my Dad (the doctor) and ghe told her she HAD to go that she could die for minjuries if not checked out. They were in the hospital with her until 3am and though nothing is broken , just bruised, she now will have to walk with a walker to get around.
I am a sick person. I was actually relieved that it was my Grandma and not my uncle or cousin. That is so fucked up on so many levels I know. I love my G, don't misunderstand, but we are not close. I just feel conflicted about it, cuz I should be upset, but I was indifferent?
My parents wanted the kids to come over and visit so I went over with the new band CD in tow for them to listen to. Remember in 20 years they have NEVER once come to a show. THey actually liked the music and were impresssed with the songs I wrote /sang...I was shocked to say the least. We got to talking and my drinking/smoking came up. My dad already knew i think and was cool about it, my mom took it pretty well too. She said she didn't approve, but understood why I was doing it. My dad even gave me some advice on how to expedite a Rx for it since my doctor won't write the scrip for it.
Tossed and turned most of the night too.....I came down from my bowl before dinner and the pain just kicked into overdrive. It made sleeping almost unbearable. I just kept running my hand up and down my wife's thigh just trying to relax, but it didn't help.
Today I am taking both kids to the doctor to get shots and bloodwork, then I have hella phone calls to make this afternoon for billing questions with car, power, hospital, phone, etc.
Myspace yet again has reunited me with a close friend I lost touch with about 3-4 years ago when I moved. My friend Allison form high school. We met in 86 as sophomores and except for the last few years have been in contact since. She is one of the kindest people you would ever meet and forgave me once for something so horrible that I did to her that I am still ashamed of to this day. She showed me what true forgiveness really is and I have never forgotten it. I got to speak to her on the phone and it was like not a second had passed. (there is a pic in my wife/friend folder)
Life is ok.....
check this out! Fucking cool!
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It's going to sound like a downer but it's not meant to. I got a phone call last night from my Mom and my wife answered it and said "you have to take this, something's wrong". My heart immediately sunk knowing that A) my favorite uncle is in the throes of Alzheimers and I am always thinkng about him and B) I found out 2 weeks ago that my Cousin Carla is dying of cancer and is NOT expected to make it much longer. I don't answer the home phone very much, I screen all calls. Anyways, my mom goes "first of all, evrything is ok" which of course means something bad has happened. My grandma (Dads's mom) fell Sat night and the paramedics had to be called. She's 78 and was refusing treatment. My aunt's called my Dad (the doctor) and ghe told her she HAD to go that she could die for minjuries if not checked out. They were in the hospital with her until 3am and though nothing is broken , just bruised, she now will have to walk with a walker to get around.
I am a sick person. I was actually relieved that it was my Grandma and not my uncle or cousin. That is so fucked up on so many levels I know. I love my G, don't misunderstand, but we are not close. I just feel conflicted about it, cuz I should be upset, but I was indifferent?
My parents wanted the kids to come over and visit so I went over with the new band CD in tow for them to listen to. Remember in 20 years they have NEVER once come to a show. THey actually liked the music and were impresssed with the songs I wrote /sang...I was shocked to say the least. We got to talking and my drinking/smoking came up. My dad already knew i think and was cool about it, my mom took it pretty well too. She said she didn't approve, but understood why I was doing it. My dad even gave me some advice on how to expedite a Rx for it since my doctor won't write the scrip for it.
Tossed and turned most of the night too.....I came down from my bowl before dinner and the pain just kicked into overdrive. It made sleeping almost unbearable. I just kept running my hand up and down my wife's thigh just trying to relax, but it didn't help.
Today I am taking both kids to the doctor to get shots and bloodwork, then I have hella phone calls to make this afternoon for billing questions with car, power, hospital, phone, etc.
Myspace yet again has reunited me with a close friend I lost touch with about 3-4 years ago when I moved. My friend Allison form high school. We met in 86 as sophomores and except for the last few years have been in contact since. She is one of the kindest people you would ever meet and forgave me once for something so horrible that I did to her that I am still ashamed of to this day. She showed me what true forgiveness really is and I have never forgotten it. I got to speak to her on the phone and it was like not a second had passed. (there is a pic in my wife/friend folder)
Life is ok.....
check this out! Fucking cool!
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pinkwhiskey:
you can call it tortue, but some people say the same about tattoos...to me it's like nails down the back...really good torture...in all seriousness, i just like making you smile
opaque:
thanks so much for taking the time to comment on my set.
