Why do we get ourselves into things that we know are wrong for us? Is it our base desires that tell us to throw logic straight out the window? Is it a drive to try and make something work, even though you know it wont?
I am in a situation such as this. Attracted to a woman I know I could never really be with simply because we are two very different people. She is religious, deeply so, and I am not. This path in her life has led her down a road that is vastly different then mine. We will never see eye to eye, never want to experience the same things and never have the same life standards. Yet we are both exceedingly attracted to one another and cant seem to stay away. I cannot change for her, she cannot change for me (And I would never ask her to).
She is beautiful, kind and fun and I would like nothing more then to please her physically and emotionally. The physical part she cannot do because of her lifestyle. The physical part I cant not do because of mine. Sometimes it seems she wants to go farther, other times its hands-off.
We argue, good-naturedly, about her beliefs and mine all the time. This can be fun, but sometimes the dogmatic approach she has been taught is like a jagged blade to my belief in equality and acceptance of all peoples.
We both have talked about what the relationship means and if we think it will work. I dont date people. She seems ok with that and says Im dating you, not the other way around. She makes no demands on me and doesnt ask me to quit my lifestyle (Just hints that she would rather it be otherwise, here and there). When I stand back and look at it I know it has to end, but when she is there I want nothing more then to have her in my arms.
I must be a glutton for punishment. This must be what a male black widow feels like when searching for the mate. At least she probably wont eat me, right?
I am in a situation such as this. Attracted to a woman I know I could never really be with simply because we are two very different people. She is religious, deeply so, and I am not. This path in her life has led her down a road that is vastly different then mine. We will never see eye to eye, never want to experience the same things and never have the same life standards. Yet we are both exceedingly attracted to one another and cant seem to stay away. I cannot change for her, she cannot change for me (And I would never ask her to).
She is beautiful, kind and fun and I would like nothing more then to please her physically and emotionally. The physical part she cannot do because of her lifestyle. The physical part I cant not do because of mine. Sometimes it seems she wants to go farther, other times its hands-off.
We argue, good-naturedly, about her beliefs and mine all the time. This can be fun, but sometimes the dogmatic approach she has been taught is like a jagged blade to my belief in equality and acceptance of all peoples.
We both have talked about what the relationship means and if we think it will work. I dont date people. She seems ok with that and says Im dating you, not the other way around. She makes no demands on me and doesnt ask me to quit my lifestyle (Just hints that she would rather it be otherwise, here and there). When I stand back and look at it I know it has to end, but when she is there I want nothing more then to have her in my arms.
I must be a glutton for punishment. This must be what a male black widow feels like when searching for the mate. At least she probably wont eat me, right?