tattoo_jake

After 7 years i am single. Here is what i wrote on facebook. I do not change my relationship status as single with any joy or jubilance. I post it with tears in my eyes and a very heavy heart. I was married to a very kindhearted, caring, loving person who was my biggest fan. I wish her all the best in her life and know she will be much happier and better off without me. I will forever love her but I had to face the bitter reality that I was not in love with her. Perhaps the most difficult part of this is I am loosing my best friend. When I have a crappy day I do not know who I will turn to. When I am excited I do not know who I will tell. When I finally finish this damn masters degree I do not know who I will share it with. Marriage is hard work. There are ups and downs and I tried to fight for it for almost a year but lost the battle.
Perhaps there are brighter days ahead and I will one day find true love. When I do I will embrace it, cherish it, adore it, and encourage it. When I do find true love I love like it will never hurt but I will also not let it abuse me, demean me, neglect me, or forget me. Love is reciprocated by love and only through love is it able to grow and when one partners love is extinguished the others will slowly die out. But when love is nurtured and encouraged it blossoms and grows into one of the strongest forces on earth.
Please do not feel sorry for me or think I am in anyway a victim. I am now walking a road I chose paved by my own mistakes and my own decisions. I just hope She knows that I care about her tremendously and will forever be there for her at the drop of a dime.
Love has a course as all things do, sometimes to end and sometimes to flow into a vast ocean of eternity. But if it does end it still quenches all that came before that, and it's running shall forever be within it's banks