tathra

so hopefully in < 2 weeks i'll be home. i should find out which chalk i'm on tomorrow or the next day. hopefully i'm on the next one *crosses fingers*

i think my body is falling apart though. my back has been hurting for no reason lately, and it sucks. back problems apparantly run in my family. but on the upside, hopefully i can get...
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i am somebody's fetish. i just hope i meet her some day.

i got promotion offers today, but unfortunately they were all 3+ hours worth of driving away, so i declined. hopefully something closer will open up soon.

i talked on the phone recently with my best friend from back home. his life has pretty much fallen apart since i left; strange enough, whenever i leave, everything does seem to get all crazy. its almost like i'm...
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lately, i havent much felt like talking to anyone or doing anything. probably depression, but i currently have no reason to be depressed right now.

i've still got a headache from last night; i slept 12 hours, and still woke up with it.

its been insanely hot here lately, too. already, the breeze is just as hot as the calm air. not even a fan...
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suddenly, i dont feel afraid of death. it feels like i've been working up to this point for quite some time now, to where thoughts of dying dont even phase me. its weird. i could be terribly ill with some strange parasite or disease right now, but thinking about that doesnt bother me one bit.

i'm not depressed or anything like that; its as if...
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*sigh*

the coolest thing happened last night. ok, it probably isnt very cool really, but it was freakin hilarious to both parties involved.

so last night i was having problems with being constantly hungry yet again. i'm talking to a friend on irc and mention that i should go eat some steak or something. i dont really want to, being a pescatarian* and all, but he...
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i read an article today in Popular Science that went into how depression, manic depression, anxiety, and even schitzophrenia, and a host of other neurological disorders can possibly be caused by nutrient deficiencies.

sooo, vitamins it is for me! its worth a shot at least

my mind is jarbled. pain. suffering. loss. i feel this in my future. from what, i know not, however i know it indeed awaits me. i try to focus, i feel the energy coursing through me, surging, pulsing, comforting, then nothing. a calm fills my soul; an uncomfortable calm. i try to focus, focus on what the future holds, alas nothing comes, just sadness, on...
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i would like to formally apologize to everyone that has put up with my shit lately. my actions have been totally out of line, and i feel like a shitbag prick, and i just hope that everyone accepts this apology, and i will do my best to not ever be like that again.

tia

only a few more days till i leave for qatar! sun, sand, and LIQUOR!!

its pretty much official at this point -- i'm going to medic school this winter! from 4 November until 15 March, i will be learning how to save people, instead of just kill them.

i'm pretty excited about my upcomming change in profession