Well the divorce process is started and despite of my being the one to initiate the conversation it was still tough. I am saddened that I have failed at this, but I also realize that it took both of us to get here and can take heart in the fact that I have always treated her with more respect than she has treated me. I think I might go have a beer or two. 
lilli:
I think you have earned a beer or two. Endings are sad, no matter why they happen. But it sounds like maybe you are ready to release the past and move on. I wish you much luck and love on your journey.