I've been on that ledge countless times
and I know what that feels like
you're on your own, can't make it through this world all alone
is this thing on at all ?
So heres the part in the month/week/day that I question what direction Im heading in in my life. Right now is ahnds down the worst semester that ive ever had. I HATE my courses and feel like im learning nothing of value in them. My professor grades my lesson plan, but dosent take into consideration how I taught the lesson and handled hte kids. Thats ridiclous. being a good teacher has nothing to do with writting all her meangless papers.
More and more i wish i just had a job. No commitments or responsibilites. Im thinking about taking a year off once Im out of school and actually doing something that I enjoy for myself. NOT drawing stupid landscapes NOT doing countless papers NOT feeling trapt NOT being away from things that I love NOT having time to do things I enjoy
WOW Im in a shitty mood. I hate tuesdays.
and I know what that feels like
you're on your own, can't make it through this world all alone
is this thing on at all ?
So heres the part in the month/week/day that I question what direction Im heading in in my life. Right now is ahnds down the worst semester that ive ever had. I HATE my courses and feel like im learning nothing of value in them. My professor grades my lesson plan, but dosent take into consideration how I taught the lesson and handled hte kids. Thats ridiclous. being a good teacher has nothing to do with writting all her meangless papers.
More and more i wish i just had a job. No commitments or responsibilites. Im thinking about taking a year off once Im out of school and actually doing something that I enjoy for myself. NOT drawing stupid landscapes NOT doing countless papers NOT feeling trapt NOT being away from things that I love NOT having time to do things I enjoy
WOW Im in a shitty mood. I hate tuesdays.
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prettydeadgirl:
cheer up doll face
frankly:
questioning things is good, and all part of the process. i'm going through it big time too, and trust me, i know its hard. stick with it through the school year then do some more thinking. " just having a job" isn't so great either, and getting school out of the way early is a good thing. it gets harder and harder to go back.