I want to be happy with myself. And I was...kinda...well not really...but I was, seriously...kinda....ugh.
I hate being depressed, especially being depressed about silly, trivial, nonsense. I know that in 2 days whatever it was that was bugging me, will totally go away, but I have to literally force myself to calm down and think rationally in that moment. Otherwise I'll drive myself nuts feeling crappy, and overthinking things.
Derek has a whole week off startig next thursday, and we will e getting the car for that week as well, so I will FINALLY e able to go out and do stuff with people I haven't been ale to visit with in forever! That makes me happy.
We bought our NIN tickets for the hollywood bowl. I am overcome with joy. I have never seen NIN in concert before, and I can not wait! I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO excited about this!
My little brother is no longer getting married. Well, they are, but not this month, or next, but in a year. This is huge news for me. He's barely 18 and I am SO glad he finally came to his senses. This girl is pissing me off though. i thought she was cool. but she's just a spoiled brat that makes my brother buy her everything her little heart desires, and doesn't even really appreciate it. She comes from a rich family, we do not. I hate hearing him complain that he doesn't have the money to upgrade his drum set, or to go do something with his friends, because he's spent so much on her. I seriously hope he ends it with her and finds someone who is actually worth spoiling. Whatever, it's his life, and his money, i guess. I just can't help the big sister in me.
I had a long talk with my mom today about her past, and how messed up she was, and how she's only now realised just how fucked up things really were in our lives due to her drug addiction. We laughed, and cried, and talked about everything. I'm glad that she's able to realise just how fucked up our lives were when she was using. It was good to bond with her, and to hear her say she was sorry for everything. She's said it before, but I think now that she's been clean for so long, and has been able to see other people living their lives the way she used to, she really KNOWS just how messed up everything was. God I hate Speed.
You should all go visit the PSW group and look at the set that me and Howdypardner did. It's fun times.
ADDED:
You know you want me
I hate being depressed, especially being depressed about silly, trivial, nonsense. I know that in 2 days whatever it was that was bugging me, will totally go away, but I have to literally force myself to calm down and think rationally in that moment. Otherwise I'll drive myself nuts feeling crappy, and overthinking things.
Derek has a whole week off startig next thursday, and we will e getting the car for that week as well, so I will FINALLY e able to go out and do stuff with people I haven't been ale to visit with in forever! That makes me happy.
We bought our NIN tickets for the hollywood bowl. I am overcome with joy. I have never seen NIN in concert before, and I can not wait! I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO excited about this!
My little brother is no longer getting married. Well, they are, but not this month, or next, but in a year. This is huge news for me. He's barely 18 and I am SO glad he finally came to his senses. This girl is pissing me off though. i thought she was cool. but she's just a spoiled brat that makes my brother buy her everything her little heart desires, and doesn't even really appreciate it. She comes from a rich family, we do not. I hate hearing him complain that he doesn't have the money to upgrade his drum set, or to go do something with his friends, because he's spent so much on her. I seriously hope he ends it with her and finds someone who is actually worth spoiling. Whatever, it's his life, and his money, i guess. I just can't help the big sister in me.
I had a long talk with my mom today about her past, and how messed up she was, and how she's only now realised just how fucked up things really were in our lives due to her drug addiction. We laughed, and cried, and talked about everything. I'm glad that she's able to realise just how fucked up our lives were when she was using. It was good to bond with her, and to hear her say she was sorry for everything. She's said it before, but I think now that she's been clean for so long, and has been able to see other people living their lives the way she used to, she really KNOWS just how messed up everything was. God I hate Speed.
You should all go visit the PSW group and look at the set that me and Howdypardner did. It's fun times.
ADDED:
You know you want me
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hellomrworld:
NIN should be lots of fun .... thanks for the birthday wishes ... my father in law is doing well ... he hates all the rules they gave him though .. he would love to go back to work
howdypardner:
love you lady!