Hey everybody!
Girls and boys, friends, lovers and strangers, i welcome you in my living room. Its pretty comfortable today, we had hot temperature, 25 degree celsius
easy
What have you done lately? For my part, working on my own and taking time for myself. feeling good. And sometimes less. But its life isnt it? Not perfection. But who likes perfection? I think i like it for some reason, and not for other reason.
I love perfection:
because its pretty. comfortable. easy.
I dont love perfection :
because its routine and become boring with time.
Wanna cup of tea? I have a delicious Pu'erh.
I dont think im gonna have update today. Just some toughts and feeling coming up and i want to share it with you.
Its been 3 years since ive moved from quebec city to montreal. And it still feel like i did the right thing. I found many good friends here, a lover i deeply love, which who i will be married soon with Ive discover i am able to be independant, more than ive ever thought. I am in a polyamory relationship who helps me to expand myself and learn more about me and other people. I found that im pretty good at modeling and i love that. I want to do more modeling in the near futur. Ive understand that i cant have a boss over me all the time. I prefer to work on my own. Ive discover that i am a women. No more a girl. I want to be more feminine and im working on that. Ive bought my first pair of shoes. Ladies kind one. and a big purse ^^ It felt good to walk around in the downtown with my new stuff. Guys looking at me, big smiles, sparkling eyes 
since 2 years, ive been in and out the vegetarian diet. Ive been vegan raw foodist too. But i always return to my initial diet. omnivore but eating more vegetarian then meat. but when i feel like it, i eat some meat. I think its important for me to not feel restricted. I had an eating desorder since 2008 : anorexia. And deprivation is not good for that reason. I rather promote eating consciously : good organic food/meat, animal raised in good conditions, respect and love. There is no way that a diet is better for everybody. We have the right to choose and feel happy with our choice without feeling judged. I know the benefice of eating vegan. cos i was one for 2 months. No runny nose, less sick, better skin. But sometimes when the craving of eating cheez come, i dont want to feel guilty. its the worst thing ever to feel when you have had an eating disorder.
we should remove the word guilt from the dictionnary ^^
So well. i dont think im totally out of the eating desorder, still think about it, even more since ive got couple of pounds on more. but well, im ready to get fit and i will do more exercices, eat well and let me have sometimes excess or such. taking it slowly. I dont know if we can ever recover completly from that seriously. its something really strong as ive brainwashed myself for hours, days, months with pictures, videos, of girl very thin/skinny. we will see.
pictures
Girls and boys, friends, lovers and strangers, i welcome you in my living room. Its pretty comfortable today, we had hot temperature, 25 degree celsius
easy
What have you done lately? For my part, working on my own and taking time for myself. feeling good. And sometimes less. But its life isnt it? Not perfection. But who likes perfection? I think i like it for some reason, and not for other reason.
I love perfection:
because its pretty. comfortable. easy.
I dont love perfection :
because its routine and become boring with time.
Wanna cup of tea? I have a delicious Pu'erh.
I dont think im gonna have update today. Just some toughts and feeling coming up and i want to share it with you.
Its been 3 years since ive moved from quebec city to montreal. And it still feel like i did the right thing. I found many good friends here, a lover i deeply love, which who i will be married soon with
Ive discover i am able to be independant, more than ive ever thought. I am in a polyamory relationship who helps me to expand myself and learn more about me and other people. I found that im pretty good at modeling and i love that. I want to do more modeling in the near futur. Ive understand that i cant have a boss over me all the time. I prefer to work on my own. Ive discover that i am a women. No more a girl. I want to be more feminine and im working on that. Ive bought my first pair of shoes. Ladies kind one. and a big purse ^^ It felt good to walk around in the downtown with my new stuff. Guys looking at me, big smiles, sparkling eyes
since 2 years, ive been in and out the vegetarian diet. Ive been vegan raw foodist too. But i always return to my initial diet. omnivore but eating more vegetarian then meat. but when i feel like it, i eat some meat. I think its important for me to not feel restricted. I had an eating desorder since 2008 : anorexia. And deprivation is not good for that reason. I rather promote eating consciously : good organic food/meat, animal raised in good conditions, respect and love. There is no way that a diet is better for everybody. We have the right to choose and feel happy with our choice without feeling judged. I know the benefice of eating vegan. cos i was one for 2 months. No runny nose, less sick, better skin. But sometimes when the craving of eating cheez come, i dont want to feel guilty. its the worst thing ever to feel when you have had an eating disorder.
we should remove the word guilt from the dictionnary ^^
So well. i dont think im totally out of the eating desorder, still think about it, even more since ive got couple of pounds on more. but well, im ready to get fit and i will do more exercices, eat well and let me have sometimes excess or such.
taking it slowly. I dont know if we can ever recover completly from that seriously. its something really strong as ive brainwashed myself for hours, days, months with pictures, videos, of girl very thin/skinny. we will see.
pictures
i think im tired
gonna head in my bed pretty soon!
thanks to be here with me guys, girls, friends, lovers and new friends
till next time, have good tea, warm love and sunshine on your head!
xoxox
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