tarajane

How does something that wasn't a big deal, turn into such a fucking big deal! Ok, so a friend of mine and I hung out later than necessary with a couple guys, one of which I've known for a long time, and yes he's a cutie, but no nothing happened...some hair dying went on, and some drinking, and maybe some flirting..but no one was getting naked with eachother or kissing anybody for gods sake...sigh!

No my husband wasn't thrilled...and that's understandable, but I was honest about where I was. Anyways, so I told the guy I know that I was hanging out with that I told my husband that that's where I was. It gets dumber. his mom is my sitter and she noticed he'd friended my friend and asked how they knew eachother. Again I was honest and said we'd hung out with him the night before and she didn't care.

So I told him his mom knew too, but didn't care. I honestly would have lied if I thought it would benefit anyone, but it woulda been obvious, and the truth wasn't that bad, so why lie. This guy also has a girlfriend, but I don't even know her.

Anyways...my husband was upset all day..trust issues and ect. And I feel really bad, and I am sorry. And now my guy friend deleted me as a friend on facebook! jesus! That wasn't necessary!

And when I go get my kid from daycare I'm sure his mother is going to be asking me questions...i don't even know how to explain it because it's all kinda fucked up and I don't even know what the problem is! I fucking hate myself today