aww
i been a slack journalist lately, an that ain't no damn good.
what can i say? my good breakup turned into a shit one, possibly the shittest, but only for a few days.
this girl tried to pick me up at a party, when i was sitting next to my ex, who promptly stormed off. we had a big fight, then i didn't hear from her for a few days.
then i turned my phone on to find 3 nasty text messages:
[i posted them then decided it was a bit mean. so now they're gone.]
so i was flabbergasted at first, then amused, then tried to call her to see what was up. she wouldn't talk to me, and i got angrier and angrier as the day went on, because she wouldn't explain herself.
and when we finally did talk, we fought and fought some more. fuck it sucked.
i rang work and asked to be excused from doing anything much for a few days, and they were nice about it: yay work.
anyway, i texted her yesterday, and she rang back, and we had a discussion which, while occasionally heated, was productive and respectful.
so.
guess we'll see what happens.
we had a deal that we wouldn't sleep with other people for a month or two, which is cool.
but i gotta say i've been looking forward to being able to be myself without apology again: to able to think and feel and do what i want with my body and my emotions.
and i don't know if that can happen with my ex. i know she really loves me and wants to make it work.
i been a slack journalist lately, an that ain't no damn good.
what can i say? my good breakup turned into a shit one, possibly the shittest, but only for a few days.
this girl tried to pick me up at a party, when i was sitting next to my ex, who promptly stormed off. we had a big fight, then i didn't hear from her for a few days.
then i turned my phone on to find 3 nasty text messages:
[i posted them then decided it was a bit mean. so now they're gone.]
so i was flabbergasted at first, then amused, then tried to call her to see what was up. she wouldn't talk to me, and i got angrier and angrier as the day went on, because she wouldn't explain herself.
and when we finally did talk, we fought and fought some more. fuck it sucked.
i rang work and asked to be excused from doing anything much for a few days, and they were nice about it: yay work.
anyway, i texted her yesterday, and she rang back, and we had a discussion which, while occasionally heated, was productive and respectful.
so.
guess we'll see what happens.
we had a deal that we wouldn't sleep with other people for a month or two, which is cool.
but i gotta say i've been looking forward to being able to be myself without apology again: to able to think and feel and do what i want with my body and my emotions.
and i don't know if that can happen with my ex. i know she really loves me and wants to make it work.
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Anyway. Sounds like you have a bit of a rough situation. She's your ex, but got angry when a woman tried to pick you up? That kind of does not make sense to me. Are you still trying to be connected in some way deeper than friendship?
The grand paradoxes of life. Pain helps us grow. I'm out the otherside of the blackhole (must watch that flim again (note to self)) And nearly ready to get back in the ring. But Suaerkraut? Shit, Shayne words are as deep as they are true.
cheers for presenting yourself. Keep flowing, brother.