tapek

Hey all,

Been a hell of a long time since I checked in, or at least since I posted anything.

I think that's because I'm in a mode of my life where I'm feeling kinda numb. One of those periods that I see a things happening around me, but can't seem to muster the desire to engage.

I think this initially hit me after the company I've been with for a long time, like 13 years, announced that it's being bought out. That day sucked !!!!!!!!! It literally felt like someone in my family had died, and while I know that analogy is ridiculous, I've had two family members pass, still it did... Logic has nothing to do with how you feel... So I think I'm still in this sort of haze, trying to now figure out if I really like what I do for a living, if I really want to work for a huge company, which by the way SUCK and have no Loyalty at all!!!!!!!! After being in the corporate world for so long, it's really feeling like I've hit the limit and this is just the messenger giving me a chance to bail and go re-make myself doing something I love, something that is worthwhile in this world...

What kinda ticks me off about all this is that now is a time I should be so damn happy... I mean I worked my ass off to get Obama elected and finally, he's in and the Republicans are falling into obscurity... So publicly it's a time when social justice may be starting to happen.... Damn, that should make me happy and be a time that I'm out there getting engaged and involved.

I think I'm getting close, getting closer to that final day when the twig snaps and I say the hell with the past, the hell with what I know and what's comfortable.... There's a lot more to the story than that but I think I'm now edging into a ramble....

Anyway, just wanted to let folks know that I'm still out there, just going through a weird time and I'm not that practiced with being down, but I still totally dig all my friends here and the whole community... It's probably actually the only place or set of people that might get my point sometimes....