I just had what should have been a wonderful weekend.
Friday night, a great night with my friends. Saturday, a party to end all parties, for the programmers at the local radio station (at which i volunteer).
Sunday of relaxing and productivity.
What could I want more than that?
I'm not entirely sure. but I felt lonely, ever while surround by my friends, and having a great time.
Lonely. I think maybe thats how I have always felt. I think that is how humans are.
It's really hard to explain I suppose. Or put into words. I guess the best way to describe it would be isolation. Like I am isolated by my individuality.
I think a lot of people have suggested this in the past, that we are, at our most basic, a communal species. But we have lost sight of that. In the modern world, it's not what joins us, but what separates us that defines our culture. We prize what is unique, and though I don't think this is a bad thing, As a result, we become a competitive species, driven by our needs, not the needs of humanity.
Furthering this isolation, we will only ever know what our senses perceive. We are isolated by this as well. Friendship and love can only go so far. I don't know how we can ever truly know anybody. We will never been understood completely, by anyone. We all have secrets which we will never share, or cannot.
We form relationships trying to fight the isolation that is inherent, but it can only mask it.
This is the human condition.
A bit of a downer. I will try to be more upbeat. Thoughts like these take me sometimes, and I need to express them. Though it seems bleak, I think the only way to be happy is to recognize our limitations, and accept them. Life is meaningful and wonderful, in spite of these limitations. Hurray!
Friday night, a great night with my friends. Saturday, a party to end all parties, for the programmers at the local radio station (at which i volunteer).
Sunday of relaxing and productivity.
What could I want more than that?
I'm not entirely sure. but I felt lonely, ever while surround by my friends, and having a great time.
Lonely. I think maybe thats how I have always felt. I think that is how humans are.
It's really hard to explain I suppose. Or put into words. I guess the best way to describe it would be isolation. Like I am isolated by my individuality.
I think a lot of people have suggested this in the past, that we are, at our most basic, a communal species. But we have lost sight of that. In the modern world, it's not what joins us, but what separates us that defines our culture. We prize what is unique, and though I don't think this is a bad thing, As a result, we become a competitive species, driven by our needs, not the needs of humanity.
Furthering this isolation, we will only ever know what our senses perceive. We are isolated by this as well. Friendship and love can only go so far. I don't know how we can ever truly know anybody. We will never been understood completely, by anyone. We all have secrets which we will never share, or cannot.
We form relationships trying to fight the isolation that is inherent, but it can only mask it.
This is the human condition.
A bit of a downer. I will try to be more upbeat. Thoughts like these take me sometimes, and I need to express them. Though it seems bleak, I think the only way to be happy is to recognize our limitations, and accept them. Life is meaningful and wonderful, in spite of these limitations. Hurray!