tantrumchild

loving reagans new set
feeling confused

read a book
funny how
books end
and people are happy
together
then what?
do they stay hppy?
do they find
someone else?
im slack
too hard
to move on
is it?

made a decision
i might turn back
i might not
but not
this time
until i know
dont expect
him to wait
around
for me
dont
i cant handle
seeing that pain
in you
so beautiful
dont wait
but dont forget
dont close
to me
cut me out
and kill
future opportunity
??

with you...
things are frustrating
me
some things
feel odd
head spinning
whir
round round
cloudy
colours
they're good
could they be
better?
will they get
worse?
is discomfort because
it's over
and over
as can be
never meant to be
again?
or due to distance
formed
in between
so long
so far
bridging the gap?
will it fill
or will it only widen
as i distance
from what else
i could be

some direction
please
spinning round round round
on my feet
walk
dizzy
tumble
stumble
making my way
unsteady
unbalanced
blurry vision
please dont fall...